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Chapter 5~

Both of them was staring at a piece of paper..

A piece of paper that they knew  would change everything..

Its been a month since that day..

Since the day both of them encountered that nightmare..

Since the day that that nightmare made them numb and can't move..

A nightmare that both of them wished didn't exist..

A nightmare that they can't escape..

A nightmare that left them with two choices.

It's either to wake up and forget about it ..

Or to let it take their souls..

"Is this the only solution Ji?"

"I don't know. Maybe. Maybe we should try.."

Both of them was in the leaving room.

The paper was placed neatly at the top of the center table together with a black pen..

"Is this the end of the relationship we tried hard to build?"

Seunghyun asked looking sternly at the paper.

Fist closed above his knee.

And eyes trying to conceal those tears..

"This is the end of the relationship that we shouldn't build in the first place.."

Seunghyun was shocked..

He didn't know that this time will come..

That those words would escape from Jiyong's mouth..

"We don't have to do this Jiyong---"

"We SHOULD!"

Jiyong looked at Seunghyun's eyes straight to his soul..

Although he was there he missed him..

He missed his touches..

His warm and caring hugs..

His meaningful kisses..

He missed everything about this man..

His man..   

"Jiyong.. Is it wrong if I'll say that I'm still in love with you? Would you come with me if I asked you to go and leave everything here?"

"Yes Seunghyun.. I will.. I will hold your hand and we will run together.."

Seunghyun's lips formed a smile..

"Ji.."

"That will be my answer if you asked me a month ago.. That could be my answer if you asked me the same question that day... But now Seunghyun its too late.. Its just too late.."

Jiyong leaned closer to the piece of paper..

Reading it many times so his mind could digest everything..

He holds the pen..

Hand trembling...

And without any doubt he signed it...

"Here.. Just think.. This was just a business.. The unfinished business that is now done.."

Seunghyun looked at the paper like it was a culprit..

It was a criminal..

A murderer...

A poison that will slowly kill their marriage..

Then he realized that maybe..

It was not the paper..

But it was him, himself...

The culprit, the criminal, the murderer..

And most especially the poison...

Seunghyun holds the pen.

He tried to tell to himself that all he needs to do was to sign the fucking piece of paper..

"Who would have thought that writing your own signature could be this hard.."

Seunghyun said and those tears fell faster than a blink of an eye..

He covered his mouth ..

He don't want to let those sobs escape..

He looked at Jiyong for the last time..

For the very last time..

Wishing that he could get the message..

The desperate message that will change, maybe not everything but at least something..

But Seunghyun knew he wouldn't hear that word..

That five letter word..

STOP...

So he signed the paper..

Wishing that he won't regret anything..

"So that was it.."

He looked at Jiyong..

He was sure that he knows the meaning of those words..

But somehow it sounds foreign..

Seunghyun was wondering,

He's 100 percent sure that the word END was spelled with,

E.N.D.

But why does Jiyong's last words somehow at some point have the same meaning...

He was sure its different but why they have the same feeling...

The feeling of losing something that once was yours..

The feeling of having something but you broke it..

The feeling of holding something too tight that it slipped..

The feeling that you've tried too hard to protect it but in the end you're the reason now why its broken..

And all you could say to yourself was..

"Yes. I guess.. That was it.."

And you've got nothing else to do with it...