The way my life changed (on hold) || A Dan Howell and Phil Lester fiction

What Now : 26

May 20th

Dan's pov

This whole week has been rough. I haven't had the motivation to talk after Aiden got hurt. Only because of Ava. Now my mother is blaming it on me. That I don't teach her things correctly. I have to visit Aiden every day because I feel bad. He has a broken nose and can't talk too much because it hurts him.
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It was later in the day and I was and my parents home. It was 4. I had my phone in my pocket and my mum walked in.
"You know if you never took that girl in Aiden wouldn't be like this. She did all of this. She is a MONSTER! SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ANYTHING! BECAUSE OF HER OUR LIVES ARE BEING HORRIBLY AFFECTED!" She yelled at me. Then I heard the noise as if a call was ending. I looked on my phone and noticed Ava called and listened to the conversation.
"YOU SHOULD LEAVE HER ON THE CURB!" She yelled.
"YOU KNOW WHAT? SHE KNOWS MORE THINGS THAN YOU DO. SHE IS ONLY LIKE THIS IS BECAUSE OF HER PAST AND YOU DON'T KNOW IT! AND YOU ARE THE ONE SAYING OUR LIVES ARE LIKE THIS BECAUSE OF HER? AIDEN WOULDN'T BE HERE NOW IF IT WASN'T FOR HER!" I yelled back and left to go home.
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Ava's pov

I heard the whole conversation. Everything wouldn't be like this if I wasn't here. They would be better. I am ruining lives. I am a monster.
I left the house with a note. I went to my spot at the park and debated if to kill myself or not.
It took a while but I was going to kill myself. All of these problems are because of myself. I didn't want to hurt anyone else. They probably didn't want me anyway.  I saw my favorite places most likely for the last time. I got to a busy bridge and looked over the edge. It was a warm day and the water level was low. It was a bridge that had a thick cement ledge and I let my feet dangle as I got my last view in my body. I was ready. I got up and ......got my hand grabbed by Kora. She helped me come to the other side.
"What were you thinking?!" She asked me.
I started to cry a little and said ," Well in my life I'm just ruining others so why live in regret?"
"Well we all have our own problems we can get through ,even though this might be the answer to you it never is."  And with that answer just a few days ago she told me a secret. That she is bi. I was comfortable with telling her any thing.
We walked around London and getting to know each other more. I felt like we could do anything together and be happy.
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It got late and we both went our separate ways and went home.
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I got to the house and remembered the note. It was in my room on my desk and I hope they didn't read it.
I got inside and Dan was by the hall to see me. He stared in shock. He saw the note. He was stuck in one spot and started to tear up. I slowly walked up to him and hugged him.
At this point we were both crying and Phil was out with his college friends.
"I am never going to leave or kick you out. You deserved better than you did." He whispered.
I hugged him tighter and cried more.
We eventually walked over to the couch and talked about why I didn't jump.
"Well, a new girl from the school new me and caught my arm before I jumped. And then we got to know each other even better."
"I am so thankful for her." Dan cried into my shoulder hugging me again.
He let me go and I went to shower then sleep. Today was eventful.
Dan's pov

Phil got home later at around 11 and I was washing the dishes.
"Hey Dan," Phil said and kissed me on the cheek.
I pecked his lips and washed the dishes.
"Are we going to tell Ava that... you know..we're dating. For the past few months?" He asked.
"Not now. I'll tell you what happened in bed ok?"
"Fine."
I finished washing the dishes, showered , and went to bed with Phil.
I told him what he missed and also started crying. We eventually went to sleep in a comfortable position.