When it's over

The night after

I don't understand how we can be good one minute and then the next were completely misunderstood . How we can go from being intwined in each other's world, to me not knowing who you are. It's frustrating and it makes me angry how one minute I think I'm getting closer , that your letting me in and then the next  I'm lost in this. In this what friendship , relationship or friends with benefits; what is this. This thing we're doing , why is it so hard to just show me some feelings. To open your heart and let me see what's inside. Are you scared that I might not like the beat of your heart or the veins that connect to it or the way the blood flows through it. Shouldn't you leave that up to me to decide. I'm here and I'm not going any where, so the question still remains. Why won't you let me in? I want to tweak your brain I want to see its structure and know how it thinks. I want to see your ideas form and the action that follows. I just want to know that apart of me is inside you. That I'm on your mind and that  I exist in your heart. I want to know where I fit in your puzzle , I want to know if I'm at the end of your maze I want to know , no I need to know that if I stay you'll change. That you'll become someone that lets me in, that shares your feelings. That your someone who isn't afraid to express your thoughts and speak for your heart not from it. I need to know that the voice inside your head knows my name. I need to hear the words that are universal: (I love you , Hafeezah ).