Letters.

Sweet dreams, LP.

Miles;

I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry for leaving you alone now that you need me.
I'm sorry for making you pretend everything is okay when it's not.
I'm sorry for being a piece of crap and i'm sorry for breaking your heart.

You know i don't love her.

You know i love you like i won't ever love someone.

You know she doesn't make me happy like you do.
And you know i don't smile when she hugs me.
You know i don't want her to kiss me.
But in front of the cameras, and in front of everyone, i have to pretend i'm in love with her; and i swear i'm uncomfortable with what she does to me.

No one will ever replace you, Mi; this isn't for the rest of my life.
One day i'll be strong and brave enough to tell everyone i'm in love with the most wonderful man in the world, someday i'll take your hand wherever we are, someday i'll tell the world all of the songs i write are just for you, that all that's on my mind is you, your smile, your words, your raspy voice in the morning when i wake up next to you and you say "G'morning, baby boy".

And i promise i will marry you, i'll give you the most beautiful ring, i'll give you the life you deserve, i will treat you like a king, like a god, like a masterpiece that can't be touched, except for me, and i swear i'll never hurt you again.

I love you, Mi.
I'm sorry.

I just sorta always feel sick without you baby.
And without you the entire world has no sense, everything is black and white with no sign of color coming back.
And right when i'm running away from the shitty reality, there you are, with open arms as if you were saying "C'mere sweetheart, i'll cuddle with you until you feel better".
'Cause when i'm sick, you're there to make me feel better, and when i'm crying you're there to wipe my tears away and make a dumb joke so i'll forget about the pain.
It may not matter to you, but for me, you're everything.
You're perfect, so fucking perfect.
You could make the rain stop and the sun shine brighter with just an smile.
And baby i swear i won't ever love someone as i love you.

I adore you, Mi.

Love;
         Alex.