april

october.

October, damn. If you're talking about Ryan and you say "October", it is such a beautiful thing to come out of your mouth. October is something you should remember vividly and never take for granted because shit, October was fucking heaven.

Things got better for Ryan, and he became closer friends with Sabrina. It's legit hard to put into words, how much Sabrina made Ryan happy. All he basically did that month was smile into his pillow. In October, his life consisted of Neck Deep and Sabrina. His day went like this: wake up to Brick by Boring Brick, Twitter, go to school and fuck shit up, come home to the best times of his life. Best times as in hanging out with Sabrina. All they did was go to a park, and after she left, all he could think about for the next week was her laugh, her smile, everything she's ever said and done that's goddamn adorable, and the feeling of "UGGHH SHES AMAZING WTF" then laughing into your pillow. Another time that really can't be put into words is when they went to a 5$ football game. All they did was talk and laugh, ignoring the 30 degree wind that numbed any part of them that wasn't covered by clothing. They barely knew what teams played and Ryan went home cheeks hurting because of smiling too much. That held him so high. At night, he really did believe Sabrina had mutual feelings and he felt so in place from that. His life was so in place that Ryan turned sad songs into happy songs. He could be listening Lime St. while dancing and fucking December would be his turn-up song. Imagine how he was with actual happy songs. Smooth Seas gave him countless amounts of whiplash from headbanging too much. Gold Steps turned his life into gold. He was so happy then, that he would try his absolute best to keep things this way. Well, maybe not his best. Sometimes he was too open with his feelings and it sometimes got in the way of their friendship, but other than that he handled what he could and did what he could. Like, he would never ask her out for the sake of the friendship. He would always put their friendship in front of his feelings.