Mates of a Mate (bxbxbxbxb)

Chapter eighteen

Jasper p.o.v

I circled back after quickly checking the area for savage activity but it was a ghost town. I couldn't help but worry for my mates I have a feeling that something bad has happened to them. My protective instincts are kicking in and I need to find my mates.

I can feel the pull to where my other mates are and I know that Colin and Logan are both together because their scents are tied.

Nate is back at the house and Mordrid is on his way home so how is anyone in danger. I continued to run back to our home dodging low hanging branches and logs until I reached the front door.

I walked into the house and Nate looked worried "They aren't heading back" he spoke up whilst sniffing the air. Their scent is faint but detectable and since our wolves are connected we can tell where they are. "Maybe they found the savage pack" Mordrid suggested

"We were supposed to come back here if we found the savage pack and only one of us was supposed to find it so why aren't they coming back" Nate asked, tapping the wooden table impatiently.

"They got captured" I blurted out to my mates
"What do you mean by captured it was only an observe and report mission" Nate growled at the stupidity of our other mates "maybe they were caught spying" Mordrid defended

"It has to be a trap because they are still alive which means they want us there as well" I paced around the room and glance up at my mates "you all ready for a fight" I smirked

Colin's p.o.v

"Colin, I'm scared" Logan whimpered in my arms. "I know pumpkin, I know" if I was being honest I'd tell him that I was afraid too but not for myself. I'm afraid that I won't be able to protect my mates and they'd die in my arms.

Knowing Jasper and his past, he'd probably be scared losing his mates to a savage like he did with his pack. We are in a cold cell in some dark basement. I'm too hurt to fight or hardly move. Logan has a fractured rib and a broken leg and to top it off we haven't taught him to fight yet.

I hope my other mates don't come to save us because of they did we'd all die in some cold cell desperate to save our loved ones.

"Do you think Nate and Jasper would come?" Logan asked, moving in my lap "I don't doubt it" I answered "why are you so worried then?" He questioned looking up at me with his big eyes. "Logan I'm not going to lie to you. This pack is my family, ex-family and I know them through and through"

Logan sat up and knitted his eyebrows together focusing on what I'm telling him "if Mordrid, Nate and Jasper come, my father will do everything in his power to kill them" I held onto Logan's hand for some kind of reassurance but he pulled away.

He looked at me with disbelief "they won't die Colin or Caylin, who ever you are" Logan snapped already moving away from me.

"Logan I'm still your mate and my name is Colin and I don't want to see our mates killed just like you so don't be afraid of me be afraid of them" I snapped angry that Logan was looking at me like i was the enemy

"So what" he growled and cornered himself in our cell "I didn't even know your real name and I didn't know about your past. I know about jasper and Nate, I know that Mordrid was a savage looking for love and unfortunately killing a few innocent people that he is grieving for and regretting his actions but Colin, I don't know who you are and by God you aren't even a savage so what are you?" Tears were spilling from his eyes and his speech stunned me for a second.

"What did you want me to tell you" I whispered with my voice cracking as I tried not to cry "hello my name is Caylin nour and I'm the son of a murder" I shrugged at Logan "oh my dear mate did you know I watched my mother being brutally beaten and then killed in front of my eyes when I was just a child" I didn't want to cry but I couldn't stop the tears from pouring out as I told Logan with a straight face.

"Logan did I tell about the time where I was beaten half to death by someone I called father and by someone I loved and not to mention my beatings were every god damn day" I said sarcastically. Logan's face fell and I could feel his guilt.

"Did I ever tell you about the time where I ran away and hallucinated my mother beside a river so I wouldn't feel so alone. How about the fact that I wanted a mate to love me because I knew no one else would ever give a crap about me" I finished not wanting to go on or wanting to remember any of it

"Colin I'm s..." I waved my hand at Logan cutting him off "I just don't want to hear it Logan" I turned away from Logan and sat quietly. I just wanted to be alone just like I was to begin with.

"Well isn't this depressing" my father chuckled entering the room "awe is big bad rouge baby gonna cry" he teased. My back was facing him so he wouldn't know that I was already crying.

"Shame on you" Logan yelled at my father and holding on to his hurt leg "he is your child and you should of loved him, you're not worthy of being called a father" Logan growled

"Oh and you should be called a mate" My father snorted at Logan "what do you mean" he asked "well you did just abandoned Caylin by moving away from him and acting so scared. You questioned his intentions when you questioned him lying about his past and I bet when you first met you hid because you don't trust rouges and you certainly don't trust Caylin" my dad smirked at the hurt looking Logan.

"But I love him" he whispered my father squatted in front of the cell bars "have you ever told my son that" I turned around to face Logan and he looked destroyed "I don't think I've ever told my mates that I love them" Logan's eyes remained on me as he spoke.

"You see son your mate doesn't even care enough about you to tell you that he loved you" he laughed. Was breaking my heart funny to him because I didn't think someone could find such humour in someone else's pain. Ever since I was abandoned by Marcus and met my mother at the river I had dreamed of finding my mate.

And my mate doesn't even love me and why would anyone love a monster like me. Like father always said, once a monster always a monster.

"Kill him son and be free like me" I looked into my father's cold dead eyes "you aren't free your being haunted by your demons and the ghosts of the people you massacred" my father didn't like the way I spoke to him to well.

"I don't need anyone especially a mate who doesn't love me. I'm a rouge and we don't follow the rules. We don't need anyone" I growled and my father seemed pleased.

"No Colin. I love you and I love all my mates please don't do this" Logan begged and grabbed my hand. I looked down at him and his pleading eyes "your pathetic just like mum always was" I told him blandly.
My father opened the cell to let me out and Logan still clung to my hand like his life depended on it.

"Colin please no, Colin don't I'm begging you"  I pulled my hand from his and closed the cell doors "don't leave me here alone Colin, please I'm scared" I closed my eyes trying to dull the pain in my own heart. I turned around and left by my father's side leaving my mate alone in a cold prison cell.

"That's my boy" Marcus smiled proudly. He is in human form because his pack is complete with me in it. "My son has returned" He growled to the pack who growled back like a bunch of dimwitted jocks.

I looked around and caught site of Jasper who was looking at me with confusion. He was hiding in the bushes beside Nate. I tilted my head vaguely at them so they could understand that I'm just buying time and that's what I should do.

I may be raised a monster and I may very well stay a monster but I don't have to do monstrous things. I would never hurt my mate and even if they don't love me back I'll save them. Once this is all over and they are safe I'll leave them be so they wouldn't have to put up with me any longer.