My Piano Notes (Kaito × Reader)

Chapter Three: Smallest Things..

Those small things you notice about your significant other are just tiny pieces of yourself breaking. The small things like when Kaito would return distressed, his face red. Or his lips swollen. Those small things. The fact that I would see Kaito and Miku together, more than usual. Or the fact Kaito has been distancing himself from me. I sighed, tears escaping from their weak chambers. Gakupo knocked, opening the door, only too see my red face, tears quickly falling down my face. He rushed to my side, comforting me. "Y/n, are you alright? Please tell me what is the matter." I cried violently into his chest, letting him calmly wait for me to settle down enough to speak. My chest ached and yearned for Kaito to hold me..My eyes stung with the very same pain and had no intention of stopping.

"I'm so sorry for wasting your time like this Gakupo.." "No that's alright, I want to help you. In any way I can." I nodded, preparing myself to tell him what was my trouble. "I mean..Kaito is sweet and caring. But there are all the small things I'd notice everyday. I try to ignore them, telling myself it's okay..waiting for everything to make sense. To tell myself that he loves me..I keep feeding myself with lies and he feeds me with empty promises. Promises I know he can't keep..He keeps reassuring me everything is okay when it's not okay..He would only leave me alone, making myself wonder what I did wrong..I love him..I have no one like him..it pains me to believe his words, but I don't want to end up hurt..The fact that he keeps on distancing himself away from me is hurting me too much..and all I see is Kaito and Miku like him and I were.." Gakupo widens his eyes, and hugs me close to his chest. "Go express to him how you truly feel. I know he wouldn't do anything to hurt you.."

I mustered up the courage and I knocked on his bedroom door. "If you're looking for Kaito, he should be by the park. Y'know the one that got closed?" Meiku drank another sip of the liquor, smiling. I nodded, and ran out into the snow, the blue scarf he gave me wrapped gently around my neck. I ran until the cold whisked my lungs and dried the throat, pushing it farther. I carried my legs until I reached the park, and walked through the cold metal gate. A snowflake touched my hot skin on my nose, melting softly. I breathed heavily, my face starting to become numb. My feet marked themselves in the snow as I began to look through the park. And I ran toward the blue haired male I've been looking for, waiting for him to hold me again...

My heart slowed as my chest began to ache. My eyes stung in disbelief and utter sadness. My breath hitched as my eyes widened. There stood the two, hand in hand, laughing in the snow..enjoying each others company. Miku reached onto her tiptoes and pecked Kaito's lips, happiness grazed onto his face. My knees buckled weakly, feeling my world crash and break down. I fell onto my knees, the cold getting stronger. My chest clenched in pain, my eyes releasing tears from their weak chambers. My lips cracked slightly, as I mustered up the strength to run. Run away to wherever my legs could carry me. The scarf dropped into the snow as I stood, my neck becoming cold. I however ran. Before they could see me.

I slowed, my legs growing numb and weak. I curled myself up in the snow and cried. I let soft sobs escape my hardened lips as my system shut down.

I paused, Miku looking at me with concern. I stared into the snow, my lips quivering and my breathing becoming hitched. Miku followed my gaze and gasped. "Y-Y/n!" We ran, tracking the soft fresh footprints before they disappeared. My heart was given to two girls..when Miku confessed I couldn't resist..What have I done..I've grieved the woman I loved..I let her feel pain...What's wrong with me?

I walked home, pieces of my skin falling off, slightly showing the wires that created me. I climbed through the window of my bedroom and plugged myself in. I took a pair of scissors and paused. I placed the scissors to the wire, hearing the locked door struggling to be opened. "Y/n? Y/n!" I sighed, and cut through half of the wire, feeling the functionality and energy drain from my body. I looked at the f/c piano, and smiled, the beautiful color growling in the moonlight. I sat at the bench and began to play whatever notes I could remember. I faintly heard the door burst open, the lock breaking. I heard frantic voices before the wire gave in and stopped working. I closed my eyes peacefully, the last tear falling from my eyes.