Chapter 12

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It's like time stood still. All I could feel were Justin's deep brown eyes glaring into me and James dark blue eyes pleading. I had no idea what to do. Justin and I are already engaged... But James is the father of my child... But I love Justin. I kept arguing back and forth in my mind. And suddenly I felt an excruciating pain run through my body. Thank God. The doctor comes in and rushes Justin and James out. He tells me that my contractions have started and I'll be giving birth to my baby anytime in the next 1-3 hours. I listened to the doctors instructions and suddenly I screamed. I could feel the baby coming out. It hurt like hell. If I have to sit through three hours of this, I'll die before I ever get to answer James. I keep listening to the doctors instructions and I keep thinking how much pain I'm in and suddenly I get really faint and lightheaded. And the next thing I know the world goes black.

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"Yea, yea it looks like she's waking up." I hear someone say.

"Is she okay?" I hear someone else say.

I slowly open my eyes. I look around the room and I see Justin, James, and the doctor peering over me.

"Jennifer, are you okay?" I hear the doctor ask, concerned.

"Uh.... Yea... I'm okay... How's my baby? Is he or she okay?"

"Jen..... I don't know how to tell you this but your baby didn't make it."

My heart dropped. I burst into tears.

I looked over at James, but he was looking down. I couldn't feel my body. I was in shock. "It was my fault wasn't it?" I asked in between sobs.

"Jennifer, when you fainted, you stopped pushing, we couldn't get you awake fast enough, and I'm so sorry but you're baby died."

"I-I-I can't believe it."

"Jennifer, it's not your fault. You couldn't help it."

"It is my fault!" I screamed and cried even harder. I wanted to die. I just told the world I was pregnant and now I have to tell the world that my baby died. I couldn't stop crying. Justin was still mad at me, I don't know what was up with James, and my baby is dead. I already had the names picked out. If it was a girl Eve Catherine and if it was a boy Jonah Samuel. And now I have nothing. I can't believe how upside down my life had been turned. James asked Justin to leave the room and he stubbornly obliged.

"Jennifer...." James said while grabbing my hand.

"I'm so sorry. I can't believe this either. I was looking forward to having a baby with you. But now that he or she is dead, I can't marry you. I'm sorry."

I was so frustrated.

"Okay, I understand. Just please, don't call me, don't talk to me, don't come by. I'm sorry, but it's too painful."

He solemnly nodded, kissed my cheek, and left. Justin came back into the room.

"Jen... I'm sorry. I know how much you wanted this baby and I'm sorry for being so upset."

"Justin, it's okay. If you don't want to be with me anymore I understand. I cheated on you for Gods sake and was having that mans child. I don't know how you could ever forgive me." I started crying again.

"Jennifer Joanna Aniston, I will always love you. Nothing could ever stop me from loving you. You are my world, my inspiration, my one true love and soul mate. I love you more than anything in this entire universe. You are my everything. And it really breaks my heart to see you like this. I can't stand to see you hurting."

"Justin. I love you so much."

He came over to me and gave me a long passionate kiss. I smiled for the first time in hours.

"And Jen?"

"Yes?"

"If you ever want to try for another baby, but this time with me...." He paused. "I'd be happy to."

And once again I started crying. Not sad tears even though my heart was still broken. This time they were happy tears. "Justin, are you serious?"

"Yes baby. I would do anything to see you smile."

"Oh my God. Can we try? I really want a baby."

"Sure. As soon as you get rested up and are feeling better we will try." He winked at me. "I love you Jennifer." That was the last thing he said before he left the hospital.

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