After four full month of being my Luke's side, having silly sleep over, never getting anywhere past a little lip action. Winter break being just around the corner, literally it starts friday annnd today happens to be thursday! This is where everything begins to become a little different.
RIIIINNNNGGG!
The bell for lunch! Finally, I am so starving. & I miss my babyboo. <3
"Hey!" Luke yells across the lunch room to be sure I come get in line next to him.
Walking up there, trying to get past these people was so complicated, almost being tripped for petes sake! As I made my way I just kept my eyes on my one true love, not giving a care about anything else in the world.
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At my house afterschool.
We were having so much "fun" that I hadn't noticed between every gasp for air that Luke had his hands put my shirt and slowly making their way to my breast. Of that, I didn't care. I could give this guy everything and still not care. and that seemed to be what happened next.. sort of
His hands hadn't gone up my shirt to touch my breast but to have taken it off in all, I loved this guy so much it didn't matter to me. Till we had gotten to where his hands were slowly making their way to the button on my miss-me jeans. When I froze, he stopped "Allison, are you aright baby?"
"Yeah!" Then I conitinued the kiss. When I felt my pants make their way off my body and onto my fuzzy carpet.. His strong arms wraped themselves around my body and hug my so tightly that I never wanted it to end. Next thingI knew, he was unstrapping my bra. Then is when I had enough
"Luke, I'm not ready yet. Please?"
"Oh my God. Just c'mon. It'll be fine."
There and then is when he then strapped me to my own bed with strip ties, took off all of my clothes and then took himself and harshly raped me. When I couldn't contain my screams he'd slap me till my whole mouth was bleeding. I couldn't close my mouth for the blood flowing out my mouth, his solution was to take my bright pink bandana and tie it around my face stuffing it in my mouth. As soon as he was done he left me there, told me that if he told anyone who did this he would find me, he said over and over again that he was only doing this because he loved me. Never again did I want to feel love or anything of the sort, because if that was it? I'd never live through it.
It took my mother 3 and a half hous to get home, and even then it too her what fet like years to come to my room to untie me, I am bleeding all over the place. My, now, red bandana, from all of my loose blood, was beginning to drip all over my skin. When my mother finally made it into help me she just screamed for at least a minute, could see not see I needed her to untie me? Like seriously. She then got me off the bed and helped me clean up where she began to ask all the questions that I couldn't bother listneing to. Luke's words were so stuck up in my head "Hush, I only want you to feel my love." "Please stop, I love you." "SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU NASTY BITCH!" -SMACK!- Making it back into thought with my poor mother was so hard. She looked more broken than I felt at the time. Begging me to come with her to the police station, but I knew I couldn't. It just wasn't going to happen.
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The next morning we had school, my mother knew I coudn't show up there after what happened the night before so she allowed me to stay home for today and the weekend. Last night, I couldn't step feet closer to my room. I slept in my mother bed with her hoping to actually get some rest, which I did fall asleep to be awoken an hour later by my own screams for help. The nightmares looked so real and I could still feel the pain of it all. But today, I knew I needed to go clean up my room to erase all the memory that it ever happened. I had to take a big black trash bag and throw my now completely blood stained bedding away and the bandanna had to go as well. Everything that had any memorie of Luke at al needed to go! All of our pictures, everything. It twas then that my phone, that I hadn't been able to find since last night was hiding under the bed.
Message From: Luke <3
"Hey baby, Where are you? I missed you in English this morning xx"
Reading this I threw my phone across the room and curled up in my closet and cried for hours that felt never ending. But somehow, I knew this was only the beginning of all my pain.
AUTHORS NOTE:
The next chapter is going to be a little bit less dramtic I believe and longer!. But ENJOY! You are all beautiful and if you need to talk about anything, My twitter is @LeoForLife99 <3 This book is just something that I could put my extra time into, trying to get out of some bad habits! Ilyasm!!! <3 So uh just comment, Vote, Share <3333 EVERYTHINNNN <3 Bai.
