two broken lovers

misfortune.

I left Jaxon's house around 11pm. As i tried to sneak in, the bloody dogs started to bark, causing my parents to wake up. My mother and I got into an argument over my bad behavior. I knew i could be a little out of control but she was being a bit dramatic.

"Jade for fucksake get your shitty act together!!" Screamed my mother, obviously not caring about waking the rest of the neighborhood up.

" I'm trying. But when you treat me like shit all because i'm not the kiss ass daughter i used to be.. it really fucking hurts mom." I sadly replied, not wanting to put in energy to really argue, but rather to just say what i feel and get it over with. Whenever my mom noticed i was getting sad she would always start crying so the pity would go to her. It was sort of tiring to continuously be the one holding everything together but someone had to do it. My dad was no where to be found in situations like these. He would always say work called him in or his buddies had an emergency. It's weird, growing up i viewed him as a hero when he put his badge on, now i just view him as a drunk and the smell of donuts coffee and bravery soon turned into lies, infidelity and alcohol.

" Mom i really do try. I maintain good grades and a part time job. I just have problems of my own and sometimes its hard to juggle everything." I tried sounding sincere, because i really wanted to. I was just bad with showing emotion sometimes. My mom just pulled me into a side hug and kissed my forehead. we shared our " i love you's" but i could tell she was still pissed because she had her nostrils flaring. When i got to my room I texted my bestfriend Bri.

" Any cool parties tonight ^.^ " ~ Jade

" Lmao of course bitch. I'll be outside in 30 minutes be ready" ~ Bri

Bri always knew the latest parties,gossip and such. I knew after the talk i just had with my mom, I probably shouldn't be sneaking out to a party. But it was something about the rush of excitement i got every time i did something rebellious that made me act out.

I put on a Black crop top with a cardigan and ripped light blue shorts. I straightened my hair and teased it a bit. Added winged eyeliner and topped my look off with black vans. I grabbed a small book bag filled it with perfume, weed, ibuprofen and a bottle of vodka from our cabinet downstairs. I seen Bri pull up just as i took my phone off charger. i locked my door and proceeded to climb out my window.

There were so many people at the party. I knew most people since i've chilled with a lot of them. My friend Dylan came up to me with a red cup filled with some mixed drink. Not even caring what i was chugging i got 3 more and by the time the 4th one came around I had no idea who i was dancing and talking to. I called Jaxon from the bathroom telling him to come to the party but i don't remember him responding. I walked outside to see people chilling around the pool smoking dope.

" AYY PASS IT" I slurred while sitting down, dipping my feet in the water.

" Anything for you beautiful." said someone from behind me. I turned around to see my ex boyfriend, immediately killing my vibe.

"Ew Landon why are you here?" I asked harshly.

" What's wrong babygirl? Didn't you miss me?" he smirked as he took a hit from the bong.

" As if asshole. Just pass me the weed." As he handed it over he rubbed on my arm for a bit. Immediately making me tense up and feel disgusted. I took a long ass toke from the bong, trying to relax my body.

" How's your boyfriend of yours?" He whispered into my ear, " He make you feel good?"

He was really asking for a punch in the face. Our whole relationship Landon was a huge fucking asshole and he was way to touchy with me all the time. We dated from 9th grade to the middle of tenth. Even though he should've been a grade above me but he was held back. This one time when we were drunk we almost went all the way, although i told him no over and over again. He's a real prick and if it wasn't for my friend's sister walking in, i would've had to do something i would've regretted for a long time.

" Can you just leave me alone?!" I hissed at him. He started rubbing up and down my thigh so i pushed him away and jogged back to the house and into the nearest hallway. He just made me feel so dirty when he was around me. I remembered about the vodka bottle i had in my book bag and took it out. This was about to get real sad. I was about half way through when i felt sick. I ran to the bathroom and puked into the toilet. i pulled myself up gargled some water and went to turn to get out when I finally noticed i wasn't alone in the bathroom.

"That kind of reminded me of when you choked on my dick, that was a hot sight, but this? not so much."

Great. Just me and fucking Landon alone in a bathroom. I attempted to walk past him but he grabbed my arm and forced a kiss upon me. He entered his tongue into my mouth and i unwillingly went with it. I tried to push away but he had his arms wrapped around me. He started to whisper about how hot i looked in my outfit but how i'd look even hotter with it off. I felt so little and helpless and i knew that no one would hear me over the music and yelling. I bit his tongue as hard as i could causing him to raise his fist and yank my hair. Just as i felt my throat swell and my body get dizzy from anxiety someone came in.

"WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN HERE?" yelled a familiar voice. I knew it had to be him, and god i had never been happier.

"Jaxon" i faintly whispered. Shocked as to what just happened and what could've happened.

I don't remember much after that but i remember being in my room with Jaxon and Bri. They decided to sleep over and I was beyond thankful, but all i really wanted was to be alone. I couldn't help but to blame myself. I could have easily avoided that situation. I'm so fed up with myself. My life is literally a never ending story of misfortune. I just want to sleep forever.

author's note: I really don't like this chapter but i promise you it serves a purpose. Feel free to comment your opinion. Much love, Pugsnotdrugsyo <3