Schools over.
It's raining.
I don't have an umbrella.
Or a hoodie.
It's cold as I walk swiftly through the empty streets. It's quiet. It's soothing. The rain hitting my face makes me realize I'm still human. I still love and breath. It reminds me I'm alive. I breath in and exhale slowly. I look at the bracelets on my left arm.
I get home. As usually no ones home. Its silent in this house. Not the good kind like the quiet steady pattern of rain hitting the ground, while random strangers in cars pass by. It was eerily quiet. I hated it, but it wasn't as bad as when they're actually home.
I quickly go upstairs smothering myself in my soft comforter. I sigh in relief . Getting back up I peel off my dirty clothes from school and put fresh clean pajamas on. I grabbed the laptop my aunt bought me, turned it on and went on tumblr. Envy bubbling in the pit of my stomach from all the pretty girls I see. Why can't I look like that? Why can't I have a thin waist and perfect curves like them?
Why do I have to be so different?
Breaking my thoughts I heard the front door slam. Sinking down in my bed I hid my face, burying it into my pillow. I sit and wait listening to the screams and shouts coming from under me.
They're home..
I swallow the lump in my throat. Laying in my bed in silence. Wait for it. Wait for it they're coming for you. Dread washes over me as I hear loud stomping coming from the stairs.
"Maddie!" My step dad calls out.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
"Yes Jim?" I say as cooly as possible.
"Come here sweety." I sit there not moving an inch. Not this again. He walks over to my bed, sitting on the edge making the bed dip by my small feet. He starts caressing my leg. I instantly jump back a little. This angered him.
He stands up and smacked me hard across my face. Letting out a sharp sigh I stand up, trying to walk away. I stopped crying a long time ago, I stopped my screams, no one was there to hear them anyways. It was hopeless a waste of energy I didn't have. As I was nearing my door he slams it closed pushing me back on to the bed.
I stand up again to have a fist connect my my jaw. Tasting a metal like liquid fill my mouth, I realize I'm bleeding. He sits next to me.
"I'm so sorry your mom doesn't need to know about this right?" He says grabbing my face in his hands. I spit some of the blood out of my mouth into his lap. A look of disgust clear on my face, But he knows I won't tell her. He roughly pushes my face, walking out of the room right after.
I sit and wait a couple of minutes, then going to the bathroom grabbing clothes for a shower. I get to the bathroom. Running the hot water. Steam soon begins to build up.
I sit at the end of my toilet. Looking at the wall in front of me. I look at my left arm again. Taking off the endless supply of bracelets I have on it. Slowly I begin to see the lines draw on it.
I then grab the small blade that caused this, drawing more skinny red lines, Oozing the crimson liquid down my arm. A tear slips from my eyes as I carve out one more. I rinse my arm off taking my clothes of and getting into th shower .
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A/N: Sorry guys, I haven't been able write much. A bit of writers block, and laziness combine. Again I apologized. But I hope you enjoyed this.
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