memories {s.m}

t w o

do you miss me like i miss you?
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I miss him. I never thought I would say it but i do. I can't help it. I was the one that left him yet i miss him so much.

Does he miss me?

Does he ever think of me?

He's a superstar now. Millions of followers on Instagram , Twitter, Vine. He's had number one hits around the world. All the girls love him, he probably has a girlfriend now.

I see his face on every billboard and i don't understand why i left him. I never stopped loving him. i was afraid. afraid that he'd become so famous that he wouldn't have time for me anymore.

So to save myself from the pain of him breaking up with me, i broke up with him. I was so selfish. I broke him. I saw the look in his eyes when i told him i was leaving. Hurt. Confusion. Broken.

Every time i think back to that day i remember the look on his face and it tears me apart.

I was going through my attic yesterday and i found a box. Our memories. I doubt Shawn even remembers it. I brought the box to my new place with me because i wanted to remember the good times.

The box was full of photos, polaroids, letters, notes, songs, there was even the first draft of his song 'life of the party' in there.

There were so many photos in there. I sat in that attic for ours going through the memories. Our first date, when he took me to the picnic under the willow tree by the lake. His first concert. It made me miss him even more.

That's when i came to my decision. I'm gonna go back for him. Tomorrow, i'm going over to his house, our old house and tell him how much he means to me, how i love him and i never stopped, how i wish i had never let him go.

Tomorrow, i will see Shawn for the first time in 2 years.

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AN/: OML IM SO SORRY! i haven't updated this book in so long. I missed writing this book and i wanted to cone back to it. Even though no one reads it i wanted to write it anyway.

-CHARLOTTE AKA QUEEN
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