So I've been home for like a year and it's boring here. Grr... Why did I leave? I got a record label though! So that's good. But I miss Justin, Chaz, and Ryan. Mostly Justin. Valentine died a week ago. She was depressed since we've left Justin. My manager, Scooter is really nice and understanding. Yeah he knows everything. I wish I had some type of contact with Chaz. Just to check in. Right now I'm going to an Italian restaurant with my boyfriend, Jai Brooks. We met through Twitter. I love him. But not as much as Justin. See Jai abuses me. He has bipolar and anger management problems. I guess I should get dressed.
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Jai should be here in 5 minutes. I looked in the mirror and smiled at my reflection. But I started thinking of Valentine and Justin. I miss them so much. I heard my phone go off. I looked at it and I had a Instagram message. I looked at it and it was from JBieber1994. Oh My God! I looked at his profile and it was pictures of Justin, Chaz, and Ryan. There was one of me sleeping. I looked back at the message.
"I can see you!" OMG! I instantly text back.
"How?" "What am I wearing?"
"You are wearing a black top and a gold sparkly skirt. With black heels!" He sent me a picture of me in the window. Fuck.
"Where are you?"
"Look out your window." I screamed when I saw Justin.
"Please leave me alone."
"Never!"
"Why?"
"I love you!" When I heard a knock on the door I jumped. I walked downstairs and looked through the peephole. JAI! I opened the door and greeted him.
"Hey!"
"Hey!" He kissed my forehead.
"Ready?"
"Yes please!" We walked outside and I got a text from Justin. I didn't see him no more. I looked at the text.
"Who is that?"
"Jai Brooks! My boyfriend!" He read it but didn't reply. Well now he's mad. Oh well. Jai doesn't know anything about Justin. But I'm planning on telling him soon. Maybe tonight. We got in the car and started driving. Should I? I'm going to do it.
"Jai!"
"Yeah?"
"I need to tell you something."
"What is it?"
"You have to promise me you won't say a word till I'm done and just listen." I started telling him.
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Finally I was done talking. He hasn't said a word. He is such a good listener. I even told him about the messages.
"Okay. I want you to live with me."
"Why?"
"Because I want to protect you."
"No because that's just more time for you to abuse me."
"Shut the hell up!" He slaps me across the face.
"You are moving in with me."
"No!" I opened the door and started walking. We were at a stop light. I started walking home. Jai didn't even try to stop me. He's probably going to go fuck someone. Yes he cheats on me. Why would I ever want to live with him. I'm still with him because I'm scared he might do something if I do break up with him. I pull out my phone to text him.
"It's over."
"I got that." I came home and talked to my mom and went to sleep. My face still hurts. It will bruise tomorrow.
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It's been so long. I'm sorry for not updating. Just have a lot going on right now with my family and friends and then there's school. Love y'all!
