How to Fall in Love [BTS]

04

Love hurts sometimes. It's like that small papercut you've made on the skin of your index finger; such a small thing it hurts too much.

When you fall in love, even if you don't admit it, you know sooner or later that small wound will come. It will hurt and it will make you cry, you'll feel like suffocating , you'll want to scream and beg Cupid please to take his arrow off your heart because the wound has started to get infected.

Will you regret falling in love?

Taehyung is afraid of that answer, because a small part of his brain is telling him 'yes'. And if he regrets having loved so strongly, then he never loved Hoseok?

"Answer me, goddamnit!" he screams at the older, upset.

Hoseok is not smiling in that sweet way Tae likes. He's serious, almost sad. The brunette covers his face in frustration, and wants to hit the older so as to make him leave the silence and give him an answer.

"Jungkook was my best friend," he whispers, and Taehyung turns red with anger.

"He was my friend too. My boyfriend, actually. But I chose you."

"I'm sorry."

"I don't want an apology!"

"Then what do you want from me, Taehyung?!"

The brunette slouches his shoulders and looks down. What happens? At what moment did they stop being cheerful Hoseok and smiley Taehyung to be this imitation of a couple? He feels heartbroken.

"What do I want?" the younger asks, without really expecting an answer. "I... I have no friends left. Everyone sees me like the worst piece of shit because of falling in love with my boyfriend's best friend. Ex boyfriend," he sighs, Hoseok averts his gaze, "And probably I am. I probably don't deserve Jungkook's forgiveness. But, you know? When I had to choose between him and you, I didn't doubt my choice."

"Tae..."

"And now you come here, you tell me you've talked to Jungkook, that he's suffering a lot, that he doesn't deserve to be this unhappy because of our relationship, that we shouldn't hurt him anymore... What do I want, Hoseok? Jungkook's happiness and mine have been put on a balance before you, and you hesitate. I think I don't want anything anymore."

The brunette walks away with self-controlled steps, devastated on the inside, while he begs his heart not to regret having loved. But it's hard to convince him, as nobody stops him when he walks away from Hoseok. Maybe Taehyung was always just an option.