Coming out (Another Gay Diary)

15th of October 2013

Dear diary,
Today, was not a great day for a gay 15 years old guy like me, who is not out of the closet yet... I mean, it all started like this.
I woke up, everything was normal. After taking a shower, I headed my new school, it's all new for me, same for Bulgaria... I am not used to live here yet... I mean it's been only 3 months since I left Lebanon to come live here. Anyways, I arrived to school and then I saw the substitute of our maths teacher, Mr. Stanilov, and I was like "OMG!!! He is so cute!!! Dark hair, blue eyes and tall!!!" I literally blushed infront of the whole class. Then there was the "are you hot or just crushing on someone". And it's awkward because there is only 5 girls in our class and they are all partnered, plus, I'm gay... Anyways I was like "Neither, I am just a bit sick"...
I can't stop thinking about him!!! I mean he is soooo cute! I don't know what I am going to do to hide it but I will figure something out... Anyways, after school, I went on a walk to the "Aiazmo" a Stara Zagora park and forest. I kept thinking of him that I got the blushing thing on again... But this time there was a gay next to me and I realised that he is gay when he flirted with me... I was so shy that I ran away... I hope that I won't be seeing him soon... I don't know what to do! Plus, the halloween party is soon and I still don't know what to wear! I guess, I will improvise...
I am heading home right now, it's 19:00 and I have a lot of things to do like study and watch Charmed, my favorite T.V series ever! I am watching season 1 right now and I am so in love with Pipper and her freezing power is sooo damn cool!!! I hope that Mr. Stanilov likes them!
I have to go now. It was nice writing about my day.. I will be doing it more often!
Bye bye for now.