What is love? zm

TORN

i struggled breathing and brawled my eyes open. above me, he stood with his friends glaring and laughing at my dismantled position. 

it was midnight when it occurred, around 12 i was out of the bar with my boyfriend, Mike. drunk as usual, i leaned on his shoulder and allowed him to lead the way home. 

i requested we take a taxi back, but he was arrogant enough to make me quiet. mike coincidently met two of his friends on the way and suggested they walk with us since it was almost midnight. his friends, john and Gerald pulled me up helping me walk.....that's what i thought. 

all three pairs of hands were on my body. I clearly didn't mind it since it was appropriate but considering mike being the over protective type, it was kind of unusual. they led me in a narrow pathway between two buildings, blinding my goddamn vision. 

i was left loose suddenly and my body, weak as ever, fell to the ground. i looked up at them and found smirks on their faces. gerald went on his knees and ran his fingers on my bare thighs. still drowzy, i pushed his hand away but failed. 

i didnt know what was happening. i didnt know why they were touching me. i didnt know why mike was allowing all this. my mind wasnt working, all i wanted was to sleep but i couldn't when random people were just touching me in inappropriate places, as of right now.

mike was down and ran his fingers down my neck, drawing at my top and tearing it revealing my bare chest. i looked at him in horror as he threw the piece of cloth behind him. i tried covering my chest but was instantly restricted and was pushed  to the ground. 

i knew what was happening now....and i couldn't do anything about it. i couldnt run, i couldnt speak, heck i couldnt even open my eyes.

let it happen...

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  i struggled breathing and brawled my eyes open. above me, he stood with his friends glaring and laughing at my dismantled position. 

john threw his empty can at me and went away. i was alone in the dark, i tried sitting up but failed and fell back first on the ground. i attempted again and sat up with my stomach and thighs burning with pain. my hands were back and blue, signs showing that i struggled, my inner thighs were green and my rib cage sprained, i think.

i stood up with the support of a trash can  and picked up all the wearable material lying around. 

i limped my way having an interval every 5 seconds due to immense pain. i came to the main road and didnt bother asking for a lift.

what did i do to deserve this? why, because i didnt want to sleep with mike yet? and he brought his friends to punish me? i freakin loved him so much and this is what he gives me. he ruined two years of our love and i wasted two years of my life. i feel so useless, why would he rape me? why would he want to ruin my life? 

i walked on and on with no place in mind. until i came across a small clinic. it was the only light in that line of buildings. i dropped whatever i was carrying and dragged myself to the clinic. 

the doors slided open and i walked in. the room was quite and peaceful with a shocked atmosphere lingering in the air. 

"Help...." i whispered and collapsed on the floor. 

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