Aeipathy.. [ZAYN MALIK FANFICTION]

Chapter 9.

And if love be madness,
may I never feel sanity again.

Sarah's P.O.V

The party went smoothly and soon I had found myself enjoying Kate's company. She had big dreams for her future and the way her eyes would sparkle while talking about them made me send a silent wish to God to let her dreams come true.
I and Ruchika were still left on thinking what to get her as a birthday present but when she gave in to our incessant insistence for a song by her, we knew what we'd to get for her. Of course, what we were planning was a little out of the league but since she gave us a chance at something so memorable, especially me, I wanted to go through the plan.

I made small talks with her parents and also some of her friends while she was gone with her boyfriend somewhere. Her boyfriend, Jason, was a real sweetheart and I swear I could see them having a future together, the way he looked at her gave it away. Add to that his supportive behavior. Turns out he had a huge contribution to her life. But that was all that Kate revealed, understandably reluctant to share everything in just one meeting.

My eyes used to catch movements in my peripheral vision, my mind registering them so as to start abnormal rhythms of my heart every time I'd recognize the figure in my side view. Twice I held his stare, staring at him without looking away. But he wasn't staring at me, no, he was staring through me. And that alone made me avert my eyes in trepidation of giving away more than I should.

I tried to let my eyes appear blank as we said our goodbyes to Kate, Zayn, Waliyha, and others standing around her. I had tried my best to not look at him but a moment of weakness was enough for me to settle on him again and he saw it. He saw the turmoil behind my eyes and I swear I saw him clench his fist before he took a huge breathe and put his hand behind his back. Almost restraining himself from stepping forward. But I didn't want him to do that. I wanted him to step forward, talk to me. But disappointment, like a dark cloud, settled upon my senses and I suddenly started feeling worn out. All I wanted to do was to go settle in my bed while watching TV and having pizza. Rather pizzas.

I sometimes wished Ruchika could be a little less talkative. I was burning holes in her head as during the conversation she somehow moved a little ahead of me. I wanted to tell her to hurry up so that I could go and sulk on my bed over everything that happened and how it felt like a dream, also, a huge part of me wasn't moving a step ahead to get out of the place. Ruchika hugged Katie and Waliyha and moved to hug Zayn too, he wasn't hostile though. She gave him a bright smile and turned to look at me.

Oh no.

"Sarah, come here say goodbye to all! "

Yes, mom.

I moved forward and embraced Katie and Waliyha, both expressing their wish to spend more time with us, Ruchika and me loving the idea instantly, agreed with them. Next were Katie's parents who wished us a bright future and I simply smiled at them