"John why did you do that!?" I liked it but I have to act like I didn't I am not sure why though.
Wait I do because if I admit it that I liked the kiss and that I'm falling for him he will make fun of me or even regret ever meeting me
"Because I...I..thought that
Nevermind it doesn't matter" his voice is racpy and sad. Is he sad that I acted like that? Is he sad that we ended the moment?
Why do I always have these thoughts?
"Okay?"
"Are you hungry?
Do you want water?
Do you need anything?"
"I am fine john I just need to walk a little" I tell him
I don't want to be mean to him but I have to I can't have love
I can't fall in love. I am blind and I will be like this forever...
I get my cane I walk out the door.
John is still inside. I need some space I need to think of everything.
When should I tell him about this about everything that is happening inside of me. all these emotions and feelings. I sit down on the floor step outside of my house.
We aren't anything he just is a friend that pity's me for being blind.
Maybe I should talk to him right now.
Yes that's what I will do
