imagine (harry styles punk edition)

chapter 7

BAY POV:

i wish that my life was perfect well at least normal. Nothing ever goes rite I'm done letting people walk all over me. I made my self a promise a long time ago i wouldn't be broken not again. I'm 17 almost 18 I've carried for so long i couldn't stop if i tried. i built my wall so high that no one would climb it or even tried. I've carried this weight, this mask on my shoulders for so long. i never thought i would end up like this alone, confused, dangerous, unloved, a lost cause.

'But if you stay hidden no one gets hurt' this voice in my head says she's so right. 'save your self the heart break the trouble. this wall that you have been building since you were 12 is for a reason. you wont have to run anymore'  what have i become.

i sat down on this cold wooden bench. the little children played in the sand and on the monkey bars and sliding down the slides. i remember those days. 'the days were all bad were if was a good day then disaster would happen.' its true i wish i wasn't like this.'a mess' she says i nodded my head. tears keep dropping from my eyes but who cares.

"are you oky? you seem sad." i look up its the girl that i seen the first day i met harry by the warehouse.

"yes I'm oky thank you but were are your parents." i ask as i whipped my tears off my face. I'm still so memorized by her resemblance of me and harry her green eyes, her light brown skin like mine, her gap teeth, her smile, her curly black hair. she's tall like me and harry, her nose is like Harry's, her dimples are like Harry's. i miss Harry even tho i just left him by that cliff

"haha my dad left but my mom's right here" she giggled as she pointed to me. what.

"what are-" i was interrupted by a honking sound we both looked behind me i see harry in his car. I looked at the girl and she was gone not a trace in sight. harry tapped my shoulders.

"did u see that little girl right here" i said I'm so confused she always disappears.

"no i didn't see anyone" he's obliviously just confused just as me.

"No she was here." i say.

"you probably imagined her" he says and grab my hand. "lets go home."

"no I'm mad at you " i bark completely forgetting about the girl.

"well what if i take you to your house." i nodded my head in agreement. when i step into the car the smell of mint fill my nostrils. Its a very pleasant smell. 

as the trees past by it seems like everything is in black and white  blurry from the tears threatening to spill.

"are you oky" Harry's voice is so soft and gentle he sounds worried.

"yeah can i go to your house" i refuse to look at him and let him see me cry.'they see all your weaknesses when you show emotion.' my dads voice says in my head. The car stops.

"look I don't want to you to think that I'm just trying to fuck you because i actually like you. " harry says. his statement makes me look at him.

"you cant like me." i whisper

"why?"

"because everyone that starts to likes me or fall for me gets hurt." i say as calmly as possible

"why cant you just give us a chance but if you don't want me as much as I want you then obviously we're not compatible as i thought." he snaps.

"look I like you a lot but Liking someone leads to loving someone and love is bullshit which would make the whole relationship a bunch of bullshit." I snap my hearts beating fast from the adrenaline pumping through my veins.

" then what do we do cuz I obviously I like you and you like me but we just don't know how to work this cause you don't want this as much as I want you cuz when I look at you and I realized that my hands aren't on you it hurts because all I want is to Rome every inch of your body every inch of you." he snaps. his hands that grip the steering began to turn white.

" Look Me in my eyes and tell me that you never fantasize about me that you never wanted to touch me that you never wanted to kiss my lips that you regret everything that happened Friday night." he looked at me his eyes piercing into mine. i cant lie at least not to him. i do want to roam every inch of him i mean in this short little time that I've been hear i want him that bad.

" I'm not going to sit here and lie to you that I don't dream about you when I see you I don't get the butterflies in my stomach but I only know you for a little bit and the more that we lead this on is the more we get attached the more fall in love the more this will become bullshit the more drama happens everything will fall apart more than it already is right now" my tears began to fall on my face the more I have been here the more I start to cry seems like everyday im here im crying or something bad is happening no one seems to notice that I'm here my moms never home my dad doesn't care cause their all the way in California. Everyone is tearing me apart. I'm still trying to put back the pieces but I'm still missing so many parts all the cracks don't fit into one another it's like trying to complete a puzzle that has a thousand pieces.

" well since I'm not taken I can still go out and do whatever the fuck I want to get fuck for all the girls I want to because obviously the one person I thought  would actually like me and probably would care about me doesn't give a shit I mean you play this game saying shit like love doesn't exist I'm not saying I love you I'm saying let's hook up." he snaps a complete different side comes out if him.

" right I told you everybody only wants to get in my pants don't know why so you can go in the back in the janitor's closet get fucked all you want to but never talk to me again you ass hole" i snap i was going to go get out the car but i don't wanna walk.

" you can never talk to me again after you take me home"

" lazy ass girl don't want to fucking walk" he says under his breath.

" hoe ass niggas these days" i snap and look out the window on the way to my house

A/N: sorry for ass chapter and a crappy chapter and that it took me a long time lol