Pandora Inside Me

Chapter 1

I awake immediately, this dream is better than most of the others that I had. I can't keep myself from smiling. I haven't smiled in a long time. While I'm replaying the dream in my head. I feel myself drift off to sleep.

It's a cold winter's morning and I have just gotten out of bed. I see things differently since the death of my father. I don't seem to care about what happens around me. Everyone thinks I'm strong, but they only see the emotions I want them to see. I walk over to the window and I stare out to the frozen street. I wish I could forget about what happened the night of my father's death but I can't. Living with guilt is absolutely no fun. I know I'm responsible for his death but no one seems to understand my point. They all think that it's grief that causes this insanity.

I lean my head against the window, steam comes from my mouth as I sigh. I bring my fingers up to my lips remembering the kiss I shared with this guy I my dream. I can taste him still. It was only a dream Alexandra, nobody will ever want to go near you. Like I will allow anyone near me I think. How can anyone love me. I'm so ugly and cold hearted. That dream was a lie, no boy even looks at me . Anybody who looks at me either feels pity or disgust. I don't blame them, my reflection makes me feel the same.

" Ally, it's time for school.", my mom shouts from the bottom of the staircase. I hope the last year of school would have some precious moments to remember. I walk away from the window and start to prepare my for the hell I'm going to.