Crushed Life

Running away from home

This incident happened during the holidays after term 1,yr 8 when i was going through depression. During depression it is hard to control your feelings and that is the reason why these stupid decisions were made at that time.

Every day of the holidays, my dad gives me specific work which i have to finish. That day i did most of the work but i didn't end up doing the second chapter of maths.

My friend had called me over and i had decided to go to her house knowing that i haven't finished my maths work.

My parents picked me up from her house on the way back and my dad asked if i had completed all the work he had allocted.

I said i did most of the work other than the maths unit. This made my dad mad since i went over to my friends without finishing the maths work.
Followed by that, my dad threatened me that when i reached home, i was in big trouble.
He even said 'i reccomend you to run away because you will get in big trouble.' I decided to ignore him as i hear these things on a daily basis.

Obviously my dad got more mad and decided to slap me on the middle of the road. That drived me crazy. I went mad. He might be my parent but he does not have the right to do that. So i decided to take a foolish decision and run away. I didn't go too far since it was 7:30 and day light daving had started. It was getting really dark.

*my biggest fear -dark*

The area i live in is not exactly safe as lately many incidents such as grabbing children and stealing had happened. So lets say i was really scared and stubborn not to return.

I decided to walk few streets and then stayed next to a bushy tree. I spent an hour there wondering what would happen next.

It was getting really cold and i was wearing a sleeveless top and shorts.

While i was standing there i saw my dads car pass. He must have been looking for me. I wasn't sure if he saw me or purposely ignored me. It must be hard to driva and look for someone at the same time.

I decided to return back home after anothet 15 minutes. On the way i saw my mum and my brother searching for me. I was about to run back but knowing that i might never return home, i decided to come home. I could hear my mum say

'Hurry up and come here, wait till you come home.'

I was now really scared. I reluctantly walked back home and my mum called my dad telling him i returned home. My dad told my mum he didnt find me so i guess he didn't purposely ignore me.

All was quiet back at home. My parets were not talking to me.
I told my friends - Leah and Victoria - about this incident.
Leah got really worried but i told her i was fine and safe at home. I can always trust Leah with my secrets. She always helps me find a conclusion, no matter how difficult the situation is.

Things were not looking good. I wanted to tell someone how i felt. I wanted to go to the counsellor but if they tell my parents, i will get in huge trouble. I don't even believe my parents are my real parents. I feel like i am adopted.

Maybe a DNA test can tell the answer for that....