Never once in my life was called a princess
Was told that life was all hard work and no rest
Yet still tried to believe in those fairy tales
Shoulda known back then it wouldn't end well
When I was a little girl, about 6 maybe
That was the first time a man had ever hit me
It wasn't love taps. It wasn't discipline.
The bull was just mad as hell and started tripping
He took us to the front room, with 'bout 6 belts
Stripped us naked, turned us black and blue with big welts.
He told us that he loved us, that he wanted us to grow
And all my life thats the only love I'd ever know
At the same time, my sister had a boyfriend
And not gonna lie he was a very shitty man
He used to hit her, used to always be angry
Isn't it funny he sounds just like my step daddy
But he was worse, cause he fucked with your mind
And to this day I hear his words all the time
He locked me in the basement of his home
And told me I was gonna die alone
Left me there to cry myself to sleep,
thinking that no one would ever love me
When I was 10 I was going through hell,
Always stressed and I never slept well
It was during this time, and I hate to admit
I started cutting myself when I felt like shit
Didn't talk 'bout it till 2 years later,
And when I did ,well yeah, I felt better
But I couldn't stop then it was a habit,
And sad to say, till this day, I still do it
3/6/16 12:08 pm
