Tattoos Kisses & Scars

Nightmares

a WARNING!!!!! There will be suicidal actions and thoughts! I am truly sorry for the people who have read this without knowing I am truly sorry! If you do not want to read the suicidal part I will write in when it starts and ends! Again I am really sorry!
Its been a week since we went shopping, and the boys have been treating Lucie like a princess and i know she loves it. It takes her mind off her Dad but sometimes she still has nightmares. I feel so helpless when she has them i cant do anything.

Im lying in my bed at the moment. Until my phone starts to sing whip it its around one so i wonder who could be calling. I grab my phone its a black iphone 5s.

I look at the caller but its unknown "Hello?" i say into the phone.

"Sara what are you doing up?" says the deep voice i know who it is at that moment, Damon.

"What are you calling me for? and how did you get my number" i dont remember giving him my number.

"I was bored and i have my ways" i know he's smiling on the other side.

Im about to reply when i hear Lucie scream, She's having a nightmare again "i have to go" i say into the phone then cut the call.

In Lucies room which is now painted purple thanks to the boys. Looking at Lucie her face is red streaked with tears and she's sweating. I walk over to her and pull her into my lap leaning against the wall. "Hey Lucie its ok its ok" I coo into her ear she calms down but still cry's.

I lean back into the wall and look at the ceiling still holding her.

Flash back

"i couldnt kill him he's just a baby!" i scream at Frank the Leader of the gang.

"You were suppose to no mercy now you have to be punished."he spits and gets his gun out i dont flinch i wont give him the satisfaction. "Bring em in!" he shouts.

The guy nods and brings in three people i recognize them immediately. "NO!" i scream. I look at my parents and sister my mother has tears in her eyes while my sister
and Dad look at me with disgust.

"You have to pay for what you did they will die all because of you" he smirks and shoots my mother.

"NO!" i scream tears running down my cheeks. He only smiles then shoots My Dad, I start sobbing. "YOU MONSTER!" i scream at him i hear another shot but i dont look i just curl into a ball and cry.

After hours if crying I look up at Frank he has a stern look on his face. "Sister you know better than to not follow orders" he spits.
I look at him with disgust "You are no brother of mine" I say.

End of flash back

"Sara!" i look up and see Damon panting and looking at me with worry. I place Lucie down and tuck her in she's not crying anymore.

I quickly wipe the tars that fell and turn around to Damon. "She just had a nightmare im tired so im going to bed" i mumble and past him. I go to my room and enter the joining bathroom and lock the door.
HERE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! It isn't pretty!!! WARNING!!!
I haven't done this in years. I think to myself but it helps with the pain. it makes me feel nothing. I go to the draw and take out a razor blade. i sit down on the tiled floor and start to cut my flesh on my wrist. "Its all my fault" i mumble to myself as i watch the blood drop onto the floor.

I cry to myself "Oh god i miss you guys so much" i say i put the blade down and just watch the blood pour out until a knock breaks me out of my trance i quickly put the blade away and wrince my arm off to clean the blood off.

I open the door with my good hand "yes?" i say to Damon his hair is all over the place but its still looks good. His blue eyes stare intently into mine.

"You were in their for an hour i just wanted to make sure you were alright" he says looking around the bathroom until his eyes stay at a spot and his eyes widen i look behind me and see the puddle of blood.

Shit i forgot to clean that up i push him out of the bathroom using both hands. "You should go" i say not looking into his eyes. I look down at my wrist and see that my cuts are bleeding again. I quickly put my arm behind my back.

He looks at me and then at my arm with angry look "Sara show me your arm" he says in a serious voice. I show him my arm thats not behind my back. He looks at me for a second before spinning me around and grabbing my other arm making me wince. "What the hell is this!" he shouts. his eyes arent filled with anger there filled with worry now.

You will not cry Sara only weak people cry you are not weak!.

"Sara you can cry it dosent mean you weak" he says pulling me into his embrace. I start crying into his chest. He picks me up bridal style and puts me onto my bead then heads into the bathroom.

DAMONS P.O.V

I go into her bathroom and look for a first aid kit. Thinking that my beautiful angel is hurting herself while i was here and i didn't even stop her. I didn't know my angel hurts herself.

I find a first aid kit and walk back to see my angel asleep i walk over to her and carefully clean and cover her wrist. I will never let her do this t herself again never. I think to myself as i finish covering her wrist. I get up to put the first aid kit away but a grasp on my elbow stops me "Please dont go" i hear Sara mumble.

OK ITS OVER! You now may read!!!

I put the first aid kit on the floor and take my top and pants off leaving me in my boxers and i go under the covers with Sara snuggling into my chest i pull her so she's on top of me and wrap my hands around her waist and bury my head into her neck while she dozes of. I kiss her forehead and whisper into her ear "I wont let anyone hurt you not even yourself" i pull her closer than i drift off to sleep thinking that i have my angel in my arms.

So..... sorry i took so long i was busy with homework and school. Good news! i updated for you today so you wont get angry when i dont update all next week cause of naplan sorry bout that but oh well love you all!

-Ando