Holding on ( A hunger games story)

Cair

"Catos sister!" I got out, but it just sounded like air.

  "Thats what i said isnt it?"

  "He never told me..."

  "Why would he? And he didnt have the chance anyway!" She snapped.

  " if I had let him when me and Peeta would have died!"

  "So what? You and Peeta arent together anyway! Your little stunt was for NOTHING! and for you! I have nothing to say to you. while my district had to fight for their life because of the stunt you pulled in your games my districts children and fathers and mothers died. they died every single day from what you rebbeled agaisnt.  we received bombs from the capital that you were resposible for.  We had no choice in it and meanwhile your sitting around on your little butt protected by so many people even  though it all this death is your fault. all of this was your fault you chose to be the Mockingjay! YOU CHOOSE TO SIT AROUND AND MAKE MOVIES WHILE WE SAT AROUND LOOKING AT DEATH. PEETA EVEN DID MORE THAN YOU! HE GOT HIJACKED AND YOU STILL SAT AROUND. HE SAVED YOUR LIFE OVER TV AND YOU TOOK EVEN MORE TIME SAVING HIM AND THEN GET MAD WHEN HE HATES YOU!"

  "I DIDN'T CHOOSE FOR MY SISTER TO BE REAPED! I DIDNT CHOOSE TO WANT EVERYONE TO WANT ME TO BE THE MOCKINGJAY! I DIDNT CHOOSE TO BE REAPED IN THE SECOND GAMES AND I SURE AS HECK DIDNT CHOOSE TO BE SAVED! YOU KNOW WHAT? BECAUSE I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT THE PLAN! IF I HAD WE WOULDNT HAVE LEFT PEETA AND JOHANNA AND.... AGH I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT. THE POINT IS I DIDNT WANT ANYTHING OF THIS. SO STOP BLAMING ME PRIM I DIDNT DO IT!!!" My hand flew to my mouth but it was to late. I just yelled at my dead sister.

  "Prim....?" She sounded nicer and curious.

  "Yes Priiiim!" I spat. "Yoir not the only one tht had to.watch their sibling die. In fact mine was in person, and it was my best friends fault!" And i fell to the floor crying. It hurt so bad. She sat next to me, she was crying too.

  We started comforting each other for awhile. It took awhile but we evenrually we calmed down and sat staring at the wall. 

  "You know Cato wasnt  really a bad guy. He just wanted to come home as bad as anyone else i suppose. I really miss him. " She said and sighed.

  "Prim wasnt weak. She could help people much more than i could. Even in the middle of the war she used her talents to help everyone. I just sat there and gor in peoples way. She didnt care whether they were district or capitol she was willing to do whatever it took to save everyone. That's what gpt her killed." Cair looked up at me kind of shocked. "I was standinf there when i saw her throw he body onto young children. She looked up and the last thing she saw was me. She said me name and i tried to say prim i love you but it didnr work. She was gone."

"I had no idea... Im sp sorry!"

  "Thanks and Cair?"

  "Yes Ms. Everdeen?"

"I want you to know i didnt want to kill Cato. I just wanted to keep Prim safe. I used to sing her this song every night and i didnt know if she could live without me. "

  "Ms. Everdeen i understand. I should never have blamed you, im sure plenty of people blame Cato righr now but a lot have moved on to. I need to move on and let Cato go." She walked out and i watch her steps become a little less heavy.

  Cair POV:

  I walk out of the school and head to the district cemetery for dead tributes. I see Catos tomb and walk over to it and sit down.

  I pull my knees up about half way and lay my arms over my knees, letting my hands hang loose.

  "Hey Cato. I talked to Katniss today. I donr whether you can here more or not bur if you can i hope you understand. We were talking about a lot of things and i realized she didnt want to kill. She wanted to see her sister as much as you did. A lot has happened since you left. Mom and Dad took it hard but were very proud of you for trying to get back. Sadly they are not with me anymore, they died in the war. So i guess they are with you now! Remeber when you said you would die before you were goinf to let me in the games. And if you hadnt left the games would still be on. So thanks i guess. I miss you though." I have to wipe a tear from my eye.

  " Remeber that time we were kids and you hated the games and used to say, well of i were to be able to end the games i would! And then you painted a white beard on with flower dust. Hahahhhahahha it was so funny and you would walk around with a pillow on im your stomach saying you were president snow?? Mom and dad used to get ao mad but i thought it was hilarious! Hahaha those were the times. But listen Cato, i love you more than anything. Bur i have to let you go. I will always remeber you but i have to let you go on. I love you Cato. Good bye. " I stood up and brushed off my pants and laid down the flowers i had picked on the way. I kissed the grave and even gave it a hug, pretending it was Cato.

  "Good bye Cato." I said. And even though i know he isnt alive i know for a fact that as i turned to leave i heard the words "Goodbye Cair." Whispered through the wind.

A/N: Thanks for all the nice comments!! And hope you enjoyed. Its short and has a lot of mistakes because i really wanted to update asap. New chapter once to twice a week!!!! Love you guys!