I am somewhere fluffy, thats all I know. Warm, soft and fluffy. Every inch of my body is aching, so much that I don't even want to open my eyes.
I groan, and rub my head and open an eye. There is a pair of eyes looming over me and basic instinct takes over me. I pull my arm free and crash my fist into the face of the Helwyr. Then everything starts to go fuzzy and...
I finally wake up again, the happiness of this moment is indescribable. I thought that Helwyr would have killed me but no. At least I don't think so. I open my eyes unsure of what I will see.
The scene waiting for me would have normally made me very worried but under these new circumstances I can't help but howl with laughter. Radley is sitting on a chair on the other side of the room with a raw steak pressed to his eye.
He glares at me as I shuffle down to the end of the bed. Those eyes weren't red, they were the deepest green and I should have known, I've stared into the long enough.
"I thought you were a Helwyr." I admit regretfully. Then I remember where I am. "The lakeside, what happened? The earthquake and all?"
"You." He removes the steak from his eye and looks directly at me as he says this, but what does it mean?
"How could I have done that? There's no way I could have done that." I state and its true. Ok, maybe I can play with fire but I sure as hell can't tear up the earth and nearly kill us all.
"You did. When you sat down and cried you felt like the world was falling down around you, right? Well it did. You literally made the world fall down." I stare at him numbly. I want to scream and laugh at the ridiculousness but something is scratching at my mind whispering that its true.
"I didn't make the whole world fall down though did I?" I repeat his words in mind and this part worries me the most.
"That massive crack you created runs for a mile or so and you tore down several powerlines. So we have no electricity or no internet so yes, to some you ruined the world."
Relief rushes through me and I feel like I need a hug. So I get up and hold my arms out like a desperate child. He rolls his eyes and sighs but I can see he is pleased as his eyes are dancing again. I notice that he doesn't have a black eye. Of course he wouldn't, we heal almost instantly. That little attention whore, trying to make me feel guilty. I take steak from him and slap him across the face with it.
We both stare at each other in awe of that childish moment. I can't believe I actually did that but he did deserve it. The seconds fly past as we seem to have fallen into a staring contest and I am so losing.
Radley has the most sly smile I have ever seen curling on his lips and his eyes are half open, giving me the sexiest look I have ever seen. Inviting me to kiss him and I fricking want to. I want to blink and then throw myself across the room at him which is unbelievebly slutty and I am disgusted at myself but damn I want to.
I have to win, even if it involves cheating like he is. I flicker my gaze down then look up through my eyelashes and bite the corner of my lip. Radley chuckles and walks over to me, sizing me up before putting his face directly in front of mine.
I put my arms around his neck and knot my fingers in his hair. At the same time we both close our eyes as I pull him forward into a kiss. One I so desperately desired.
After I lose count of how minutes go past I finally manage to pull myself away from him. I remember about the shield on my mind and want to know if Radley knows.
"Are your dad and Damari alright?" He nods and I can tell he knows what is coming next from the wary look that takes up home in his eyes. " You know don't you? You know that I've been shielded."
"I was only told the day my dad arrived. He wanted me to know why you couldn't remember anything. He can help you." I had a feeling he knew but I'd tried to bury it. I didn't want to believe he knew and didn't tell me.
"I trusted you. I thought you would have told me something as important as this. I... I'm..." I just don't know what do say. Just a minute ago everything was so perfect but now I just want this block gone and to get away from him.
I get up to leave but Radley grabs my wrist. I give him a look full of anger and distrust that I don't completely mean, before storming down the hallway to Jackson's room and knock on the door.
"Enter." I follow the instruction and walk in. He is sitting in a chair by a window, with a large book in his hands. "It's great to see that you are alright Aerona. I would ask what I can do for you but I have a feeling I know the answer."
"I want the shield gone. I need to remember. Do you know what it's like to not remember your parents or the first ten years of your life? No I don't think so." There is a guilty expression on his face but also an unreadable one.
"I am perfectly happy to remove the shield as it was only supposed to be temporary and I do think now is a good time to remove it. But are you sure you understand what will happen?"
I shrug as I don't. All I am sure of is that I want it gone fast. I wait for him to continue.
"The shield would be gone in an instant and for a second you won't remember anything. Then it will all come back. Your parents death and every moment of sadness you ever felt. Ten years of repressed emotions will flood through you in a second. Some people cope and come to terms with their past... Some do not."
"What does that mean? What happens to them?" I interrupt as I am starting to freak out.
"They would have another shield placed upon them and they would forget ever knowing about it being there. That's your choice Aerona. Cope or forget everything about being a Dewin."
I sit down on the floor and close my eyes. I don't have a clue. Well actually I do. The answer is obvious to me. I need to remember. Bad and good is a normal part of everyones lives. The good is there for us to cherish. The bad for us to learn from. Both should always be remembered.
"I'm ready. I want you to remove it." I meet his eyes, he is very unsure but I'm not.
"Alright sweetheart, please lie down on my bed and we'll get started. I hope you know what your in for. I am so sorry."
I walk over to the bed and lay on my back. Jackson come over to me and gives me a querying look. I nod for what I hope is the final time. I want him to believe I am ready.
"Close your eyes sweetheart. I promise this won't hurt."
He presses his cold hands to my temples and I shut my eyes. I don't know what I am anticipating will happen next and it id making me paranoid. I'm actually scared.
There is a fluttery sound in my head and... What is happening? I snap my eyes open and stare at a man I have never seen before. Why were his hands all over the my face? Where the hell am I? I begin to scream in terror. What the fuck is happening?
Then I remember.
