What now?

Getting to know Sebastion and break down #2

The next day I wake up and see Sebastion sitting at his desk." I am sorry for being a bitch yesterday." I said. He walks over to me and sits down."it's ok. I should have told you why you were here. I  just did not want you to flip out." he said. I look at him. "can we go do something?" I said. Sebastion looks at me. "I could take you to the mall." he said. I look up at him. "you mean the mall close to where I live?" I said. he takes me to the mall. I get somethings that I need. He pulls in front of my house. "what are we doing here?" i said. There is no cars in the drive away. We walk up to the the house and i unlock the door.

I go up stairs to my room and see that everything is gone. I walk out of the house. then run to the park and sit in my tree and close my eyes. "Jamie." Sebastion said. I look down at him. I climb out of the tree and he hug me. we walk back to the car. I see my mom and step-dad sitting outside. I see my mother look at me. my step-father looks at my mom. my mother points at me. i see my step-father look at me. Sebastion opens the car door for me and i get in. he shuts the door.He walks over to the drive side and gets in. He drives back to his house. I get out of the car and walk into the house.

I walk into someone he looks older then Sebastion. "Sorry." I said. He looks at me. "It's ok. Are you ok? " he said. I look at him." I am fine." I said and walk out the room and upstairs to Sebastion room. I hate my life no one care. I see the knife sitting on the desk. I pick it up and sit on the bed. When I am upset i alway hold my knife it makes me feel better. Sebastion walks into the room and sits next to me. "Jamie can I see that please." He said. I look at him and put it in his hand. "Please help me." I said and I start to cry. Sebastion puts the knife down on the table by the bed.

Sebastion hug me and I put my head on his chest. "Help you with what." He said. I feel him rubbing my back. "I do not want to feel like this anymore.not feel like I am nothing. No one cares about me and I feel all alone."I said. I put my head back on his chest.

"You have me now and I will do whatever I have to, to make sure you do not feel alone." He said. I look up at him and smile. "Can we go for a walk tonight ." I said. He smiles at me. "Yes we can do that." He said. Later that night we go for a walk. Sebastion has an arm around me. "I love night walks. I used to go on them all the time. When I was at home because I could not stand being at home." I said. Sebastion kisses my forehead. "I know I have been watching you for four years." He said. I look at him. You have been watching me since I was 14." I said.

He looks at me. "I am 4 years older then you." He said. I kiss him "so you are 22." I said. He hugs me "yes." He said. I look at him. " so you have been stalking me for the last 4 years." I said. he looks at me. "yes I have been stalking you for the last 4 years. can we drop it now." he said. we go back to his house and I go to bed. I wake screaming from a dream. Sebastion runs into the room and sit by me and holds me. "what is wrong Jamie." he said. I look at him. "bad dream." I said. he lays down and I put my head on his chest and fall back asleep.