When The Truth Hurts

Haleanor

(Louis' POV)

I lye awake, as my body shivers. My blankets got kicked off sometime during the night yet I was too tired to move. We get a weeks break from tour starting tomorrow, which will give me plenty of time to think.

Ya know, I've been doing a whole lot of that lately, and whether it be a good thing or a bad thing I'm not sure. I thought long and hard about my life and it's become more apparent to me that under my "fame".. I'm a fucking mess.

   Have you ever just stayed awake all night to think about your mistakes? Or why you can't be with who you REALLY want to be with?

Harry has been very caring lately and I wonder if he can tell I'm a mess. What if I'm also a mess on the outside?   

Something beside me vibrates and I am woken from my thoughts. I realize I got a text and quickly reached over to grab my phone.

[Hazza:"Lou, it's like 1pm, time to get up..and shave for gods sake" ]  I smiled at his text. He's normally the only reason I can smile. I roll out of my bunk and casually walk to the bathroom to get ready.

I'm not sure what I'm getting ready for, but I figure I should do SOMETHING productive. I quickly shave and gel my hair back. I sighed because I couldn't get it the way Lou did, she was always good with my hair.

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(Harry's POV)

I slid my pants on, and walked into the kitchen where Liam and Zayn were. Ofcourse they were already up..

I tiredly smiled at them as I warmed up my tea. 

"So..Harry.." Liam inquired, as he patted a seat by the small couch. Although we have a nice tour bus, I wouldn't mind if it was a LITTLE bit bigger..

"Yeah?" I raised an eyebrow at him. "Have you noticed?" Liam whispered.  I looked around the room in confusion, Liam always beat around the bush. At times it could be great.. but usually I hated him for it.

"Louis!" he quietly hissed, causing me to jump. "Oh? Louis? He seems sad.." I mumbled while sipping my tea.  Ofcourse, if I were Louis, I'd bypass managements rules.  I thought back to the tweet he sent out of anger.  A girl was teasing him about us, and he replied with something along the lines of "Larry is the biggest load of ullshit I've ever heard".

I can't say it didn't hurt, but it didn't feel good. I never thought I'd have to hide my feelings.. then again I didn't think I'd ever be this popular or famous.  "Yeah, He hasn't shaved in like two weeks.." Zayn smirked, while he tapped on the screen of his phone.

I nodded, and nibbled on the inside of my lip. What should I do? Management doesn't care. They'd just assume that Eleanor wasn't fixing the problem, and set us up with a new girl. Don't get me wrong, Eleanor is surprisingly a great girl, but Louis' mine. 

"What do you suggest I do, then?" I stood and put my cup away. They both looked at me with pleading eyes. I sighed, realizing wha they meant. "You want me to talk to Eleanor don't you.." I rolled my eyes.   "I WON'T" I crossed my arms, and proceeded to nod in disagreement.

"You're the only one who can do it.." Liam said, sticking out his bottom lip. "Alright.." I gave up the fight and quickly dialed Eleanor's number, which was pre-set into my phone ; Thanks Management.

I quickly suggested to her that we meet up at a local sandwich shop around 12pm. Once I arrived I saw that she was already there. I rolled my eyes at her persona. I walked in and sat across from her. These seats weren't all that comfortable..

"So,Harry? There's was something you wanted to talk about?" She spoke in her posh voice, setting her phone down. "Erm, Yeah. Louis" I said, fumbling with my fingers.  Ofcourse, she should know what's wrong with him.. They seemed to be getting very close.

"Oh?" She said, cocking her read. "Well, yeah. He hasn't been taking care of himself. He just wont get out of bed..or shave.." I said, un-confidently making eye contact with her.  It was true. He was scaring me. He won't even take naps with me, or text me during the night, even though he was a bunk across from me. 

"Hmph. I noticed that too. Listen Harry, I want you to know that I'm not ever going to take him away from you. I'm simply doing what I have to" Her small hand patted mine as it rested on the table. I slowly nodded at her.

" He's tired of management.. He's tired of living this way. He's tired of not being able to LOVE you." She said, stirring her coffee with a clinky spoon. Her emotions were calm, yet seemed to be caring.

A whole new oasis felt like it was opening. "Eleanor.. " I choked out, letting tears fall. The pain that had been building up, broke my barrier. To finally find someone that cared, and KNEW my situation was SO new.  

"Aw..Harry.." She moved across the table and sat beside me, wrapping her dainty arms around me. "I'm not the bad person people say I am" She smiled.  "But you aren't the nicest either" I said with sass, wiping my eyes.  She giggled at me, which made me feel somewhat better. "Harry, just keep an eye on him.. Don't let him do something crazy" She assured me, before I picked up the tab and we both departed.  

As I walked back to our tour bus, I thought about what El said. I hoped that Louis knew I would always love him.. I'm just not capable of showing it. I'm scared of ruining our careers, over love. 

- - - 

(Louis' POV) 

I decided to lay back down when I realized every one had gone out ; without me. I scrolled through my feed on Twitter, following some, and tweeting others. My typical day  until my eyes grew wide.  

[ HARRY STYLES AND LOUIS TOMLINSON'S GIRLFRIEND ELEANOR ON SECRET DATE? ]

    what??

My eyes grew wide as I tapped the link, showing me two familiar faces hugging each other inside a.. sandwich shop? REALLY?

I felt anger well up inside very quickly. I threw my phone down and gripped the sheets in anger. This is the part of my life I'm absolutely done with.

Done with hiding.

Done with lies.

Done with rules..

   And most of all done with love.