Reality

Pain

It hurts.

Why do I have to feel these feelings.

I don't want to feel this pain anymore.

I kept repeating those words in my head while lying on the bed crying.

I don't want to go through these anymore, why do I have to cry over someone that doesn't even care of what's happening to me.

Someone that doesn't even care for my feelings.

Someone that doesn't even know these feelings.

Why does she have to make me feel these way?

These feelings.

I want it to go away.

I don't wanna be in this world anymore.

I want to be gone.

I just want to go away.

I layed on my bed trying to stop the tears but it wouldn't stop. I tried to lay on my stomach so I could face the pillow that I was laying on trying to calm myself.

I can hear myself sobbing in my room.

I tried to get up so I could grab a cup of coffee.

I felt tired.

On my way to the kitchen I saw myself, I looked pale, My eyes were red from all the crying.

I heated the water and headed to the bathroom to shower.

The kettle started to whistle when I got out. I wrapped a towel around my waist and got out of the shower.

I turned the stove off and poured the water on a mug and made the coffee.

I finished it and got to bed again. Not trying to remember the things that happened to me.

I checked my phone and it was only six in the evening.

I sighed, It's so early, I shut my eyes and tried to sleep.