Some days I just feel like I'm done. Done with people, done with school, done with life. I don't even know what I did wrong. One day I'm that perfect cheerleader who is dating the quarterback, next thing I know I'm at the bottom. Being bullied every day isn't where I thought I would ever be. Now all I get is snarky remarks from people I used to bully. I can't believe I made people feel this way without even realizing. I feel so bad for what I did to them, but now it's too late. They've already been hurt and are now hurting me back instead.
My name is Olivia, I am 16 years old and I'm garbage, at least I feel that way. Everyone else seems to have a perfect life except for me. By this time I am done, I'm ending my life tonight. This isn't my suicide letter this is my goodbye for now. I'm ready to be free from all of this pain and this is the only way. This letter is going to tell my story. Everything that happened up to this point. How I began at the top and now I'm at the bottom.
It all started at the beginning of the school year, I started dating this new guy. His name was Korey. We started hanging out as a group during the summer and ended up hanging out alone, then he asked me out. We've been together ever since.
This morning he asked me if I would be going to Prissy's party tonight. I told him I have a lot of homework to do. He started to yell at me saying that I don't have a choice and that I'm going with him and he will pick me up around seven. This is when I started thinking about what I'm getting myself into. Maybe I don't know him as well as I thought I did.
I decided to do what Korey wanted and went with him because I didn't want to start a fight. My homework could wait until tomorrow it is a weekend after all. We went to Prissy's house, she is my best friend we cheer together and we're both popular. When I got there Korey said that he was going to hang out with the guys for a bit and he walked over towards them. II decided to go hang out with Prissy for a bit. As soon as I walked over to prissy me and her started gossiping about everything for hours. After I realized what time it was, I walked over to Korey and told him I wanted to head home. He took me to the side and said he isn't ready to leave yet and I have no other way home since everyone else was drunk. I didn't have any other choice but to stay and try to enjoy myself.
The night continued with guys trying to get with me and people offering me drinks every few minutes. I kept denying it, but then after about five people offering I finally just said yes it's only one drink. One drink became two drinks that became a whole night of drinking games.
Around one in the morning there were only four of us who hadn't passed out or gone home. Me, Korey, Prissy, and Prissy's crush Zach. Zach and I used to date, which makes things a little awkward, but we are getting used to seeing each other more now. Since there was only us four and the party was becoming a drag, Prissy asked us if we wanted to play seven minutes in heaven. We all agreed and all sat down together in a circle on the ground. Zach started the game off by telling me and Prissy that we have to go together. We just look at each other, laugh then head in. While in the closet we made the plan to mess up our hair and have our clothes shifted a bit to see what the guys would say.
Once the seven minutes were up they knocked on the door and after a few more minutes, we walked out confidently. Both Zach and Korey looked shocked and a little grossed out by what it looked like. They start questioning us and we burst out laughing. We didn't tell them what actually happened instead we decided to let them keep thinking that. Next it was Prissy's turn to choose. She sent me and Zach in the closet together which wasn't much of a surprise. We didn't do much until he just grabbed my butt. I was a little shocked at first, but then I just laughed and pulled him into a hug. I missed him, but I would never tell anyone that especially Prissy. We heard the timer go off so we both walked out. I don't know what he was thinking, but I was just thinking about us being together again. Both Korey and Prissy passed out when we got out. It looked like they were making out before they did. Nor Zach or I were tired so we went up to Prissy's room to watch a scary movie. Zach barely made it up the stairs, he had quite a bit more to drink than me so I helped him out.
