They say I don't understand. I'll NEVER
understand
Because I'm happy.
But my smile masks a cloud of remembrance
of a period of my life when
I considered myself
WORTHLESS.
The word rattled in my head
and in the pit of my stomach.
It dressed me in deep circles and
echoed in my ears.
If I laughed -
WORTHLESS.
talked -
worthless.
showed a hint of existance -
WORTHLESS.
I carried with me the weight of not caring
When my name was breathed from the lips
of
millions
in those damned halls.
Don't you see?
I let my fists unclench in false ignorance.
You dare label me as clueless
because I dare
to forget.
