I'm Sorry, Forgive me?

Chapter 2 - Explicit content

Chapter 2

"But I'm afraid that she didn't make it. We found a body by the river, where she went missing."

I shake my head, "She can't be dead... She can't be..."

"I'm so sorry for your loss..." They walk away.

I turn and hug her parents.

The school day passes by in a blur. I remain numb the whole time I'm there. After school, I head to an acquaintance's house. I walk up to her door and she lets me in. She leads me to her room and shuts the door as I sit on her bed She sits beside me.

"I heard the news.. I'm so sorry.."

I shake my head, "I don't think it's her. Honestly. We always had the connection.. that kind of bond. If she were dead.. I'd feel it."

"Jesse... They found her body. She's gone..."

"I refuse to believe it's her. But I need an out. I need to forget that it's her birthday today, because it makes me hurt more.. Do you have the stuff?"

She sighs and nods, "I have it." She stands up and walks over to her closet. She moves a bunch of stuff off the floor, and removes a floorboard. She pulls a box out and puts the floorboard back, and walks over to me. She sits it down between us. She opens the box and flips the lid over, and pulls out a little zip lock bag and dumps the white powdered onto the lid and then pulls out a razor. I feel a pang of guilt but it quickly goes away when I see her start to break up the powder and pulls out a straw, and sniffs it. She pulls back and wipes her nose, letting out a soft moan as she does. She holds out the straw and I gladly accept it and break up some more. I lean down and sniff it, pulling back and wiping my nose. For a few minutes, we take turns sniffing it until it's all gone. She pushes the stuff off her bed, and crashes her lips to mine quickly. I grip her waist and pull her on top of me.

She straddles me, and then the next thing I know we're both completely naked, our clothes thrown all over the room. She's on top of me, I run my hands up and down her sides as she runs her nails down my chest, as she rides me, moaning. Her back slightly arched. I smile as I grip her waist and flip us over, so I'm on top. I kiss her neck, sucking and biting gently as I speed up. I feel her wrap her legs around my waist causing me to get even deeper, both of us moaning in pleasure. I see her back arch more as I go even harder. I let out a moan, when I feel her nails run down my back. This goes on for another hour, before I roll off her, breathing heavy. She smiles and looks over at me,

"How you feeling now?"

I chuckle, "Definitely satisfied. I needed that."

"The drugs, or the sex?"

I chuckle at her, "Both."

"Well, my supplier is out of town for the next 2 weeks.. but, you are more than welcome over here for sex whenever you need it."

"You have my cell. It goes both ways. You call if you ever need that again."

She laughs, and sits up, letting the sheets fall off her chest, "Not a problem!"

I grin as I sit up and pull her on my lap again, "No strings attached." As I bring my lips to her nipples, sucking, and swirling my tongue around them, nibbling gently, as she moans, running her fingers through my hair, pressing me more onto her chest. I wrap my arms around her waist as I switch to her other breast. I pull away and she smiles,

"I don't think I could ever get enough of you."

I chuckle, "That's the point." I smirk.

She climbs off me, and I stand up and get dressed as she does. I fix my hair a bit. As she walks me down to the door.

"I'll be in contact."

"God, I hope so." I smirk at her as I walk off to my car and drive home. I walk into my house, and see my mom unpacking groceries. I nod, and give her a hug.

"Hey mom."

She hugs me back tightly, "Hey kiddo. How are you doing?"

I nod, "I'm alright. Managing."

She gives me a sympathetic smile, "I know. I'm so proud of you for being so strong about this whole situation. I talked to her parents.. those poor folks.. losing their only child. I can't imagine how I'd react if anything were to happen to you."

I nod, "I know mom. But you won't have to find out. I'm not going anywhere. I promise."

She smiles and nods, "I know. Her parents are coming over for dinner tonight. Okay?"

I nod, "I'll go wash up."

She nods, "Good idea."

20 minutes later, I walk downstairs to be greeted by the sound of some familiar voices, I walk into the kitchen to see Kayla's mom and my mom chatting over the stove, and my dad and her father sitting on the couch in the living room, watching sports. I clear my throat as her mother looks over. She gives me a sad smile, but she tries her best to mask the pain, as she walks over, and hugs me. I hug back. I know she's pained every time she sees me, the memories of me and her daughter together every day after school and before school, haunt her just as much as they haunt me. The memories of the nightmares begin to flood my brain as I close my eyes tightly, trying to get rid of them as I hug her back.

"How are you doing, sweet heart?"

I shrug, "I'm pretty numb.."

She sighs, "I know you want to believe she's still alive and shes out there... but she's not.. We all have to accept that. I know it will be hard.. trust me. The past 9 years, have been incredibly painful for all of us. But.. at least we have peace to know she's no suffering with that psycho anymore..."

I shake my head, "We had that bond, Mrs. Stewart...We had that special bond. I would be able to sense that she was dead.. But somethings telling me she's not dead... She can't be dead."

My mom walks over and rubs my back, "Sweet heart... Please. Don't make this harder on them than it already is. We can talk about this tonight, after dinner. Right now.. Please help me set the table?"

I sigh and nod, "Alright, mom."

Iwill admit, every time I see my mom, or even my dad, I feel guilty. If theyknew I was on drugs... they would be so devastated. Along with Mr. and Mrs.Stewart. I know they all care about me. But at this point, I'm way too far goneto be able to stop now. I know Makayla wouldn't approve and she'd probably evenslap me around a bit to know all the things I have done in my life. I can'tstop. I won't stop. Even if it kills me. At least, if I die... I'll be with Kaylaagain. That is all I really want. I want to be with her again. No matter how Igo about it. 

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I don't write stuff like this a lot, but hey. Always a first time for everything! 

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I will update this one more often now that I'm on break! I hope you guys like it!

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Cae xx