I Won't Let You Go

Prologue

August 16, 1998
Los Angeles, California

"Stop it Fame! I'm hurting. Please stop". she's crying but I didn't stop.

I continue pulling her hair. I hate her, she ruined my Amiel, my favorite doll. Its my birthday gift from Dad last month when we turn nine.

She's always like that, because she knew that Mom will be on her side. Always.

My mother have favoritism, yes, she loves me, but I know that Tame is her favorite, while Dad, he's always fair. That's why I sooo love my Dad.

Ruining not only my suff but also my life is her favorite past time.

"I hate you Tame, you really planned that. You're jealous that's why you ruin my Amiel." I hissed at her while still pulling her hair.

She's jealous because Dad bought Amiel for me. But it's her fault, she asked to have new dress while I asked Dad to have Amiel.

"I didn't mean to ruin Amiel, its accident." she pleaded but I didn't believe her. I knew her, she's bitch.

"What are you trying to say Tame? That you accidentally broke Amiel into pieces?."

I'm very angry, my beautiful Amiel is now broken into pieces. Its look like a chopped-chopped victim.

"You can't fool me Tame!" I pull her hair again, but someone stop me.

"Fameia Celestine! Why are you hurting your twin?" my dad Eduardo Britt ask me angrily.

"She destroyed my favorite doll dad." any minute my tears will fall, but I try to hold it. I don't want to look weak.

"Is it true baby?" my Mom Aurora Britt ask Tame the bitch.

"No Mommy, I just accidentally pulled Amiels head, I didn't know that it will broke easily. Believe me Mom, Dad!" She's now using her so called "charm" to our parents.

And I know it will work, as always.

"See Fameia, your twin didn't mean to ruin your doll. Say sorry to her." Mom said, obviously, I am the evil here again.

"I won't! And I will never! Why are you always like that, you're always believing that bitch. Can't you see, I am the victim here, Mom? You always blaming me when we have fights. You always on her side, what about me? I also your daughter but I feel like you don't love me like how you love Tame". I sobbed, I can't hold my tears anymore.

"What are you
saying Fameia? Your being ridiculous!" what do I expect to my Mom?

I smile bitterly. This is the common scenario. Tame is the good one, while I am the one causing the problem. I don't understand my parents, Yes I maybe a hardheaded one, but Tame? She's the real evil here.

"Fameia, baby, stop crying. Okay? Your mother loves you the way she loves your ate Tame. So stop thinking that way. We love you both, always remember that." my father is the only one who understand me.

And that's the reason why Tame is acting like that, cause she can't get Dad's whole attention like what she did to Mom.

"And Tameia Valentine, say sorry to your twin. Eventhough you didn't intend to ruin her doll, you still end up breaking it." irriration is visible to his face, but dad still keep his calmness.

"But Dad, Fame said that she's gonna break my legs and arms like what happen to Amiel." she fake her sobbed.

"You really said that to Tameia?!" my Mom look like she really believe her.

I can't believes this.

"I didn't said that. Tameia is lying!" I almost shouted.

"Stop Fame, you hurt your twin, just say sorry. I'll buy you another doll later." Dad is now asking me to say sorry to that bitch?

"Why do I need to say sorry to that bitch?" I angrily ask.

"Fameia Celestine! Where do you learned that word? Say sorry, now!" Dad is now pointing his finger to me.

I saw Tameia Valentine smile evily. Like she's saying, "I win".

"You don't really love me Dad. I hate you!" then I run out of the house.

I heard Dad's voice calling my name, but I didn't stop.

I hate them, they don't love me.

I crossed the street without looking. I heard a loud sound of a car and I know that it will hit me soon.

I can't move my body because of shock and panic.

"DAD!" I called my savior in my mind.

The car is just a few meter away from me so I just close my eyes and waited for it to hit me.

But someone pushed me on the side, so I fell on the sidewalk.

My arms and legs hurts, I'm sure I got many bruises. My heart still beats really fast.

I open my eyes and try to stand eventhough my body didn't want me to.

"Eduardo!" I heard my Mom's cry while calling my dad's name.

My world stop.

No!

I saw my Dad lying on the ground. His body was filled with his blood.

He was hitted by the car.

"D-dad" my tears automatically fell on my cheeks.

My knees felt weak.

I slowly went near him, but my Mom stop me.

"You! It is your fault! If you just stop and listen to your dad, it won't happen to him". her eyes is full of anger.

I don't know. It wasn't my fault.
I tried to speak but I just can't.

I felt numb.

Mom is right. It's all because of me. Its my fault, yes, its my fault.

"I hate you Fame, you killed dad". she's crying.

For the first time, I agreed to my twin.

Because right now, I really hate myself.

I must be the one lying lifelessly on the ground, my dad, my only savior, He don't deserve that.

I'm so sorry Dad, I didn't know that it will happen.

If I just know.

My tears continously flow.

I felt weak.

I close my eyes as my body fell on the ground for the second time.

"Dad, I'm sorry. I love you". then I blackout.

And from then, without my savior,

I knew that my life will be on hell.