Diary

Wish

I wish I had my blade

I wish I could cut

I wish my mind wasn't so fucked

I wish I was okay

I wish I was better

I wish I was....

I wish I was someone else....

Someone who could be better for you

Someone who didn't care, or get jealous

I wish I was normal

I wish I wasn't depressed

I wish I didn't have anxiety

I wish I didn't have trust issues

I wish memories didn't stay.....

Maybe I'd finally be okay....

I wish I could cut

I wish I could bleed

I wish I felt physical pain instead of this emotional train

I'm sorry but I'm no good

I'm sorry I'm a waste of time

I wish I could be there for you

But I can't...

I never can...