Austin and Ally Fanfiction, I love you from here,to here

From here, to here 2

"She left me."

Dez's eyes just bulge and he pulls me closer.

"Oh buddy. I'm sorry." Is all I hear before I drift off into darkness.

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For once in my life I don't dream of a happy ending with Ally. I see her face laughing at me when I jump off a cliff. I watch her make out with Elliot when I'm drifting into death.

I wake up in a shaking sweat. I start to calm down but my heart still hurts and nerves are freaking. I've felt this once before. The day "her" an Matt got together. I only got through that day with one thing.

Beer.

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I walked to the beer store. Everyone was giving me funny looks. I probably looked like a low-class alcoholic. Can you blame me?

I grab a six pack of beer and I plan to chug all of them.

I set the pack on the table. I just stare at it for a few minutes. Thinking of how my life got this way. Her. I'm doing this because of her. I'm trying to hate her because of it but I just can't. No matter what I'll always love her.

I chug them one by one, the strong taste sliding down my throat starts to taste better everytime I drink another. Soon enough the whole pack is gone. I figured it would stop the heartache but I just feel numb. Like my body's asleep but feels everything.

The only thing that comes clear in my mind is "Ally".

I have to win her back. I just have to.

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Without anything besides her in my mind. I walk up onto our-her- door step and knock as loud as I can. She doesn't come. So I start screaming her name at the top of my lungs. I hear light footsteps run down the stairs that I recognize of ally's. I miss hearin that when I come home from a concert or from recording.

A figure opens the door to show ally in her robe. And her sweet n sour pjs I bought her. I look into her eyes and just wrap her in my arms.

" ally you can't leave me you just can't!" I started peppering her face with kisses. " I love you!!! Please let me come back, please! Dump Elliot! He doesn't love you as much as I do! I don't understand what I did wrong ally! Tell me!" I scream while digging my face into her neck.

"It wasn't anything you did, Austin." She starts slowly stroking my head. " I felt something missing and I thought sex would fix that because we were always sexually flirting. But it turns out we just grew apart. There was nothing we could do." Her explaining softly only made me angrier. How could she think we grew apart!?!

" how could you think we were growing apart!? My feelings for your never changed since the day I met you! Maybe they grew more. But I thought you felt the same! I-I thought you loved me as much as I love you." I collapsed on the ground crying. The last thing I felt was ally pulling me up and setting me on the couch.

I woke up to the sound of Ally's voice, at first I thought all of the break up, and fighting and Elliot was a dream, till I realized the pounding in my head, and screaming from both Ally's and a voice I faintly recognize.

I could hear Elliot screaming about why I was here, and if ally was cheating on him. I slowly got up trying to ignore my huge hangover. I walked up to the door frame and just stood there. Looking at the two as they fight. They didn't notice me, but the gasp that came outta my mouth once I heard those 4 words come out of her mouth made them notice.

'I never loved him!' Kept ringing in my head over and over, I stare at her in shock.

She covers her mouth and tries to speak but I cut her off by running out the door, running straight to Dez's and planing never to leave.

I can feel my phone vibrating in my pocket and I know they're all from ally.

When I arrived at Dez's I went into the guest bedroom bathroom found my new razor and cut all the plastic to get the blades off.

I lean over the sink breathing in and out just pressing the blade to my wrist... I finally find reason and slide the blade. I cringe waiting for the pain... That never comes, I just feel numb. I see the blood, but I don't feel pain. Has my heartache over powered all my pAin?

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Days pass and more cuts appear. I haven't left the room and haven't let anyone in no matter how many times Dez begs to.

Most my time is spend looking at the wall, thinking of reasons to stay. So far, the only reason is Dez. Ally wont care. She never loved me. No one will love me. I'm a broken man, that won't let that the girl he gave his heart crushed it in her hands and drove over it go.

For the first time in forever, I finally move. I take a shower and get changed. I start my goodbye note. I want ally to be happy but I just can't come to grips that I won't be the one to make her happy.

I write down all my feelings in that note. Then just as I'm about to leave, I feel the ring, Her ring in my pocket. I decide to give her, her own personal letter, telling her it's not her fault she fell out of love, that I don't blame her and explaining that heaven just wanted a angel to watch over her and he picked me. I put the ring isn't the envelope and drive to the bridge.

I'm just standing here looking over the side. The park beside it is where my parents got married, it was where I was going to marry ally. I texted everyone. Saying to come to that exact location. Not like anyone would notice I'm gone. I placed the notes on my windshield. Looking around the town silently saying goodbye. I notice how beautiful Miami is with all the lights. Waving goodbye, I jump on the other side of the guard rain and act as though I'm flying, that I'm finally free. Those 30 secondS it toke for me to hit the ground numbed all pain. It was like I was already dead...

I can feel myself slowly slipping into death. The last face I see is the love of my life's, screaming, tear streaked , beautiful face. I slowly whisper loud enough for only me to hear....

Good bye ally. Ill love you to here.

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Ok I haven't decided if I wanna do a chapter on Ally finding the note and explaining more.

If you don't know the From here, To here thing here is a explanation. So when Ally asked Austin how much he loved her, she wanted to know if she broke up with him, if he would be really heartbroken. Because she didn't get his answer she didn't. But Austin was practically saying he loved her till death do them part. Sure he choose his death, but he still thinks he'll still love her even as her guardian angel. My grandfather used to tell me, that when you feel as though no one loves you, just know that god gave you your soulmate as your guardian angel so you can know your loved and even though you can't love them back, they will always fall In

love with you.

So tell me I you want me to make a 3rd chapter, honestly in my opinion it's not over. But there wasn't much feed back last chapter and I don't know if the story was any good. But thank you to that one reviewer :)

Sorry it toke so long to post. I didn't think you guys liked it so I toke my time writing this, hoping to get more reviews but guess not. Oh well I love you all and hope you enjoyed :)