The air that I breath in is filling my lungs. Strange however it feels like the air is occupying the emptiness that I feel without you around. So I tried to held my breath in, trying to not let go. It is unfortunate that it gets painful by time. The longer I held it in the more painful it does. I dont want to breathe it out. As I feel like if I do, all the emptiness that I felt before will take place again.
So I continue to held it in. Then I started to feel my heart beating against my ribs, the muscles enclosing my throat starting to feel as if it is burning, I can feel my pulsating abdominal artery and my chest muscles feels like being ripped apart. It was too damn painful to bear that I need to let it go. So I did and the emptiness started to fill in again. The cycle then is put on repeat.
