I’m glad I have to go there with my bicycle, although my helmet is embarrassing , I’m burning calories then. Thinking about calories, I haven’t weighted myself for 8 days already, that’s a lot for me.
I walked out of my room, went to the right, walked through the hallway and opened the 2nd door on my right. The bathroom was regular, a little big but still normal, considering there’s a bath and a toilet there, it isn’t that weird. I closed the door behind me and stripped until I was in my underwear. It’s an attack on demon underwear set, I shipped it from china, I’m really obsessed with that manga.
I grabbed the scale that was on the left of the toilet and laid it on the bathroom carpet.
I’m 168 and 8 days ago I weighted 50
‘’47’’
WHAT?? 47?? ONLY 3 KILO’S IN 8 DAYS?? DISGUSTING! NO, THAT CAN’T BE, I’VE DONE PUSH UPS AND DIDN’T EAT FOR DAYS! I… I FEEL SO EMBARRASSED TO MYSELF AND SO ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME!
I laid the scale back on its place and stood up.
Standing in front of the toilet, thinking about what actually needed to leave my stomach. Ironically, it was not the food that needed to leave, it were those feelings. I can’t stand the fact that the only thing I had in control in my life has left me like that. I can’t stand the fact that I’m not able to control this, I want to accomplish something for once, without procrastinating and failing it. Mom, please be proud at me when I reach my goal, please.
I left the bath room with my previous clothes on, I wiped the left corner of my mouth. Yes, I did it. The only thing that came out was a yellow, bitter fluid. It tasted like my current mood. I was aware of dad working in the farm and milking the cows with that weird machine thing, 53 cows in total. It’s really loud so it’s obvious he won’t hear me choking on my puke.
As I entered my room I saw my phone screen shining, I walked to my desk and grabbed it
Baldy: HEY I heard you’re going too, since jean’s trying to hook up with Mikasa, will you join me and Marco with embarrassing him, it’s just a little teasing lol you know how it goes
PotatoPasta: omg Connie what the hell, of course I will, since he got zero chance with her and doesn’t leave her alone, we should totally teach him a lesson
Baldy: yeah, he’s my best friend but also an asshole, since he got no braces anymore he thinks he can fix every chick, he’s not bad looking but you know what I mean :p
Jean huh, I used to have a crush on him 2 years ago, when he was a nice 17 year old guy. But now, ew. Even Eren got in a fight with him once, I’m curious how it will turn out in college with these two, since they chose the same subjects. Can’t wait for the vacation to be over and hear about their adventures.
PotatoPasta: LOL yeah, are we going to do this in the break?
Baldy: Yes, are you planning to do something else after the movie?
PotatoPasta: not really, why?
Baldy: Marco and I are going to the burger king afterwards, since Annie and bert work there, it would be fun to visit them
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck, I can’t say no, dammit
PotatoPasta: sure, are there toilets, I ate too much chili today
Baldy: LOL typical, yeah, your stomach is safe, but I think you have to pay though
PotatoPasta: lol, don’t care, I’ll go
Baldy: K BYE, see you then
PotatoPasta: bye bald demon
I’m glad he isn’t like Eren’s boyfriend, or Mikasa. It would be terribly suspicious to see me like that and then having me to ask if there’s a toilet.
It’s so weird that 2 minutes ago I was feeling terrible. But now, I feel so, peaceful, relieved and forgot what I just did. It always happens when I’m talking to Connie, he has this thing that always makes me happy and comfortable. If there was food, I’d probably stick it in my mouth and eat it, I always eat when I’m happy.
What should I wear, it has to be saggy, and since people already see me as lazy, I’ll go with a black lagging and a light grey ACDC hoodie.
My legs have always been the same, it’s the waist that counts
X
After cycling a whole end, I parked my bicycle in the garage that was already left open for me. Sometimes I think Christa is just a fucking saint for doing that.
I walked past the car that Ymir had lend from her brother, it’s actually a quite feminine car for a guy though. I mean, a dark grey Toyota aico? Something I would buy. As I parked my bicycle in the garage I noticed Christa’s aunt her car wasn’t there, which meant she’s probably drinking tea at a friend’s house.
I didn’t lock my bike and opened the door. I walked through the hallway and opened the door of the living room. I stepped in and I saw Christa in her pink skinny jeans and light blue Adidas sweater and Ymir in her black skinny jeans and pink T-shirt with the Bloodlad logo on it [ an anime ]
They were arguing about the taste.
It’s cute how they argue about things, they look like an old couple to me when they do that.
I walked to the couch and let myself collapse there, I let out a very loud breath in the pillow and laid like that for 5 minutes.
Ymir eventually gave Christa her way and They both were chopping potatoes for the potato cookies.
‘’let’s turn on the TV, game of thrones is probably on already’’
Ymir walked to the couch and saw me laying there like a zombie, she jumped and took a step backwards.
‘’SINCE WHEN ARE YOU HERE’’
‘’Euhm.. I dunno’’
‘’I swear Sasha you’re getting on my nerves when you appear like that, seriously stop it!’’
Oh yeah, I actually do that a lot.
‘’I’m.. too lazy to say I’m here so I’ll just wait until someone notices me’’
Ymir frowned and grabbed the remote that was laying on the couch next to me. She turned the TV on.
‘’Ugh, the daily show has to finish. We’ll have to wait 10 minutes until game of thrones airs. Sasha, stand the fuck up and chop some damn potatoes with us, you lazy little shit’’
Ymir grabbed my ankle and almost pulled me off the couch
‘’OKAY OKAY OH MY GOD YMIR’’
Ymir said nothing and let my ankle go, she stood there and stared at me.
‘’you’re so pale Sasha, and you also weight less, how come’’
Dammit, I hate it when Ymir is serious, she can see right through you, no matter what. I hate it when she’s like that, I don’t know what to say, I’ll just go with
‘’I’m not feeling well, but I don’t want to miss the food’’
‘’Sasha, even when you’re sick you keep craving to food, ugh, don’t eat too much okay? you shit’’
‘’I won’t promise’’
Now everything is under control
