I love him.
Only him.
Never have I ever felt so much for one person. All I ever wanted to do was be near him, all I ever wanted to be was with him.
I got to the bus door, and all I heard on the inside was ;
"I love you! I love you and only you! You're my world!"
I knew it was Vic's voice.
I backed away from the door, choking back tears. I wasn't going to cry anymore.
I was wasting my tears on someone who didn't care. Iris caught up to me and we chatted.
I told her about Vic and everything and all she could tell me was ;
"You're beautiful. You'll be okay. You got me and Aloura"
Which, it did make me feel better and tonight I knew exactly what I was going to do.
Break my promise.
"We should go out tonight." I mentioned to Iris. She nodded, smiling and grabbing my hand. We ran back to the bus, even though I didn't wanna go in or be near it, we raced into the bathroom.
Aloura tracked us to the bathroom walking in.
"I don't know what your guys are doing. But, I want in."
We laughed, starting to get dressed up.
Iris wore her usual, skinnies and a tank top.
Aloura put on a long sleeved dress,and some converse.
I just sat there.
I felt physically sick, like if I stood up, my legs would go out right from under me.
Iris and Aloura sighed at me.
"Come on, Avery. You aren't gonna get anywhere by sulking." Iris whined, I waved my hand at her.
Aloura pulled me up, brushing my hair back, smiling at me.
"Everythings gonna be okay."
I picked up some eyeliner, doing my wings and putting on some mascara. I slid on a sweater and some skinnies.
My hair was wavy from the heat, so all I did was brush it.
I put on some Toms and looked in the mirror.
"Never fall in love again, Avery. It's awful." I told myself in the mirror.
I walked out, surprised to see no one on the bus.
I shrugged it off and walked off the bus, Iris and Aloura we're already outside waiting for me.
The sun was setting, it looked so pretty on the horizon.
Mixtures of oranges and reds and pinks
I wanted to smile, for it looked so beautiful.
But, I feel like I have now forgotten how to smile at beautiful things.
I feel like I've forgotten just how to smile.
