Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness; Brallon

Just Another Statistic

It really didn't matter. People get life-changing news everyday, it was normal. No matter how drastic it is people react differently.

You will see some people cry and say "How could this happen? I'm such a good person!" Or "This is ludicrous!" blah blah more bullshit. And maybe they are good people but was crying going to really help them in their case?

There was also those people who were too optimistic, they'd have a good support system, good family to help them through. "My family and God will help me with my recovery." Cut the fucking bullshit, praying to this God won't help, what is your family supposed to do? Guide your way back to health? Yeah no, the only way your family really helps is with money.

Then there are people like me. Maybe I am one of a kind, probably not, I'm not special, I'm not an important person, I am just another statistic of people who get life-changing news everyday. I'm the person who just sits there and kind of just spaces out. I don't listen to what the person who has given me the news, it's just white noise for me as my hearing blocks it out and all I hear is high-pitched busing noise in my ears. I don't react to it either.

Right now, I am just looking at my mother's face, she's talking to the man who'd given me the news with such passion. Like there's a cure for me. She already has plans from plan A to plan Z. Right now, I'm just remembering all ithe great times we laughed together, every time she was there for me to pick me up off my feet.

"Mr. Weekes." I come back to reality at the soothing voice of the man.

"Please, take your time to process this but, it is urgent that we try and start your treatments right away." He states, I nod and try to form words but it just comes out as gibberish.

"Dallon, honey, take it easy, breath." I do as my mother told me and I relax, my heart still racing and I nod.

"I- okay. Thank you." And I leave. It's just news. Nothing special, I'm nothing special. I'm just another statistic.