Save Me || kmg × jww

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-Mingyu

When I woke up I decided to check on Wonwoo. I walked up to his bed and kneeled down beside him. It was then that I noticed that his pillow was slightly damp. He must have cried in his sleep again.

A few times I've tried to sneak into his bed to hold him and comfort him while he's sleeping but he always woke up. So then I go back to my own bed and pretend like I didn't just try to sleep in his bed with him.

"Wonwoo, you need to wake up now." I said softly, playing with his messy hair.

He started to wake up so I kissed his forehead softly. Wonwoo lets me do that since he thinks it's "No homo" but trust me, there is A lot of homo intended. He just doesn't know how I feel about him yet.

"Good morning Wonwoo."

"Good morning."

"We have a day off today. Do you want to go to the park with me?" I asked since I know that he loves going to the park a few streets away from us.

"Sure."

"Ok, I'm going to get dressed then." I went to the dresser that is right across the room and pulled out some clothes. Not going into the bathroom first, I start to undress. I want Wonwoo to see my body. I wish that it could happen in a different way but it never will. A few times, I've seen him looking at me while I undress and put more clothes on. He would always look away soon after though, seeming to realise that he was just staring at a guy's body. My guess is that he is confused about his sexuality. I want to help him figure it out but I don't know how to suggest it. Maybe I'll just have to kiss him and see how he reacts. I don't want to hurt him more though. I can tell that he's fragile and upset. I don't want to make it worse.

After we both got dressed, I asked S.Coups if we could go to the park and he said yes.

When we got to the park, Wonwoo sat on a swing and I pushed him for awhile until I sat on one as well.

"Are you feeling ok today, Wonwoo?"

"I don't know, same as usual I guess."

"At least you're not worse, though."

"Yeah"

Conversations with Wonwoo are always like this. Short and simple answers. I don't mind though. I know that he's depressed and doesn't like to talk much. I just want to keep him company so that he's not alone and he can talk to someone if he wants to.

We sat at the park for a few hours until it started to get a bit chilly because of the wind.

When we got home, Wonwoo went to our room so I followed him.

When I entered the room, I saw that he was laying in his bed, his back facing the rest of the room.

Deciding to take another chance, I started getting under the blankets with him. Surprisingly, he didn't say anything this time. I looked to see if he was asleep but he wasn't. He was just looking at the wall.

I put my arms around his waist. I expected him to move away, but instead he moved closer to body and turned around, facing my chest. I hugged him tighter to my body, knowing that he needed comfort. He's never let me do that before. I take the chance to comfort him and don't plan on moving away unless he does first. I want Wonwoo to be happy.