Once in a life time

Part 5

I stumble quickly into my bathroom, tears rushing down my face as I shut the bathroom door close and struggle to lock it No need for that really, no one will be home for hours even though I know he followed me inside.
My heart raced and I didn't bother to stop it, I even leave my jumper, shoes, and leggings on as I climb in the bath and turn on the hot shower.

I pull my arms around my legs as the water rushes around me, so hot it burns making my pale skin slightly pink.
  My heart feels heavy in my chest.
I don't understand why.
It's all my fault.
I did this to myself to my parents, to everyone I've ever been friends with. It's my fault I'm alone and that my parents are suffering.

I let out a sob and squeeze my eyes shut ,gripping and digging my finger nails into my arms to distract from the pain in my chest.

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24 hours earlier
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"Mom?" I called out into the house my bare feet making their way down the stairs. Today is a rough day and I could really use her hug. It's been two years today since I last seen jake and I'm still not over it, I may never be over it, he was my best friend.

I don't hear anything back from my mom and That's unusual.
Usually mom would be down making breakfast before school.

"Mom" I call again and make my way through the entire down stairs.

I sigh and make my way back upstairs to get ready.
I'm half way up stair when I hear a crash. My feet stop for a second then I'm rushing the rest of the way up the stairs and to my moms room where it came from.
"Mom!?" I call out knocking on her door slightly.
No answer from her but another crash.

I open her door and hear a faint sob.
My heart races as I look to the bathroom door that's opened a crack.

"Mom" I whisper as I open the door then gasp at what I see.
My mom sat on the ground with blood surrounding her, her hair messed up and her make up running down her face.
She looked up at me her eyes sunken and heart broken. "Brooke go" she sobbed out not bothering to wipe the tears falling freely down her face "go get y-your dad"
So that's what I did I turned as fast as I could and sprinted down the stairs two at a time just as I make it to the front door I hear a car door shut and I run out side as fast as I can.

My dad was already starting the car but when he sees me running he stops and gets out quickly "what's wrong sweetie" he asks seeing my face.

"M-mom bathroom" I stutter trying to ignore the pain in my chest reminding me that I haven't taken my medicine yet.
My dads face drops and he runs inside to aid his love. I stay outside for a moment to gather myself then quickly follow his way,up the stairs to my parents room.

  My dads crouched on the floor holding my mom who's sobs are now muffled by my dads chest. My heart clenches at how broken my mom looks, and I can't do anything to help.
  I understand why my moms so broken down this has happened 5 times in the last 7 years, sadly she can't seem to get past the first few months, and it was my fault. If she didn't have me she could have tons of kids by now, but my life ruined her.

"Dad?" I ask soft not sure what to do.
Dad looks at me for one moment and gives me a sad look.
"Brook just go to school okay?" He says and I swallow and nod my head and leave the room.

I'm numb through out my entire walk to school, when I get close enough I quickly mask any sign of sadness or 'numbness'.
I'm already late so I sit at the edge of the woods and wait for a few minutes before 2nd period starts then I start walking back to school.

  I quickly make it to my locker before the bell rings and when it does I'm still standing there looking into my locker.
I quickly grab my stuff and shut it then go to class.
Hopefully this day will be over soon.