When Kian left me it meant something: that he didn't give a damn about me anymore. As I get up and get dressed on this rainy Monday morning, all I can think about is him. He was, perhaps still is my everything. You know what he said? He said he was leaving so I could be happy when he knew that he was the one who made me happy.
He never once thought about other people. He's so fucking inconsiderate, "oh my gosh I hate him!" I say aloud.
"No you don't." My roommate, Savannah says as she walks into my room. She looks at me as I'm staring at myself in the mirror. "You know what I need?"
"What?" I say as I turn around and look at her.
"I need you to get out of your feelings! Hello! If you don't remember, we're going to a party for O2L later."
"Really Savannah, O2L? Kian was in that group. Yeah and if you don't recall, he's my first love, and their parties are in-fucking-sane. he's probably gonna hook up with eight thousand different girls. I hope that fucker gets an STD with his horny ass."
I walk out of my room with Savannah following. I go into the kitchen to find a cake that says "you got me :)" with a card and flowers. I love my bestfriend. I give her a big hug and say "when did you get this? This was so sweet, you made my day. I love you!"
"I got it early this morning because I knew last night was really rough for you. I love you too."
We go sit on the couch and turn on Netflix. We pick the movie, 'The Best of Me' and start it.
"You know I've seen this before." I turn to look at Savannah.
"Well then why are we watching it, Julia?"
"Honestly, because I like watching two people have what I never will."
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// i hate you, i love you. \\
FanfictionI was on the floor crying & he looked me in the eyes. God bless his sorry face. "I'm a mess." I said. "I know."
