Miss Potterhead's diary (On Hold)

The Patronus Charm

“Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them. Even Muggles feel their presence, though they can’t see them. Get too near a dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself…soulless and evil." -Professor Remus Lupin

My favorite book and movie will always be Harry Potter and the prisoner of Azkaban. Prisoner of Azkaban has also helped me get through many tough situation. It teaches us to face our fear and defend ourselves from the dark spells of negativities. When Sirius Black was in Azkaban he used to keep his mind stable with a very strong and positive memory so that he could get through the tortures of the dementors all those years. Harry conjured a powerful patronus charm with his best and strong memory. If understood the book/movie from a non magical point of view the meaning is quite simple, it's a battle against depression and all sort of negativities which drag us down till we longer wish to be happy and living.

I am very much familiar with the term depression at an early age as many of you are. I had been molested in my childhood, people broke my trust each and every time, had some horrible past experiences which I wish I could forget or forgive. I kept my chin up always but with all those negativities following me like my own shadow it was tough to stay positive and bright. After my four weeks old kitten died of my fault I just shattered. I had no longer the strength to fight back the unpleasant thus ended up being feeble. I felt guilty, I felt worse, I stopped looking at the brighter side. I got entrapped in fear that I would stay unloved and the people I love will one day get rid of me. I wrote this quote in one of those dark times.

"Eyes can't function well when a thick fog surrounds the sight. You see white, everything white. Your vision blurs, your mind projects a certain fear. You feel puzzled. You feel unsafe and unsure of what is waiting on the other side of that dense fog."

I was lucky enough to have a friend who had been able to take my hand and drag me to sunshine again. That's what HP celebrates, it celebrates friendship. By saying that I would like to quote what Ron said when he thought Sirius Black was going to harm Harry.

"If you want to kill Harry, you’ll have to kill us, too!"

That explains everything. You will find the friendship of Mooney, Padfoot and Prongs (not mentioning Wormtail cause he's a traitor) as infrangible. They stayed together till the end.

My depression and negative thoughts are the dementors which suck the happiness out of me and my patronus charm is my happy memory (When I started falling for Harry Potter). You might think I'm insane but whenever I find myself lost in pessimistic or saddening thoughts I take a deep breath and say "Expecto Patronum". It helps trust me, I feel positive. It's my favourite spell by the way.

So you see we all are Harry Potter in real life. We just need to conjure a strong patronus to keep away all the dementors from affecting us. They will come again to torment undoubtedly but we have to keep saying Expecto Patronum!

A/N- What's your favourite spell out of the HP series? I'm dying to know.