Holding On

Chapter 2 - Karma?

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Chapter 2

Savannah’s POV

29th October 2011

I woke up the next morning still in my school uniform and with a pounding head ache. I stumble out of bed and too my mirror. Ugh. I looked terrible. My think mascara and eyeliner had run down my face and had left big streaks.

I looked at the time. It was 6.00a.m. School didn’t start till 8.30 so I still had heaps of time to fix myself up.

I walked to the bathroom and turned the water on. I got under the hot water. It burned my skin but it was a sort of good feeling. I washed all the makeup off my face and then I got out. I spent a lot of time looking at myself in the mirror. Was I really ugly? I have always had people telling me that I’m pretty or beautiful. I have never been called ugly before. Was I really fat? I’m always watching what I eat. Maybe I should go on a diet.

Suddenly there was a knock at the door. “Savannah? Honey are you in there?” my mum was calling for me.

“Yeah mum, I’m in here” I called back to her

“Are you alright? You were already in bed when I got home. Are you sick?”  

“No mum I’m fine, don’t worry”

My mum didn’t stay to talk she just left to go to work.  I was thinking of ditching school and going somewhere different, like the beach or the shops but then thought it might be a good idea to just ignore it all. Act like I never saw that Facebook post in the first place. I mean I can be strong. I have heaps of good friends and a great boyfriend…. well…maybe not now but I use to have a good boyfriend.

I left the bathroom and put on my fresh school uniform. I rolled my skirt a couple of times so it hung just above the middle of my thigh. I pulled out my eyeliner and mascara and packed it on. My eyes were still red from crying so I was trying to cover that up.

I ran down the stairs as fast as I could. Shit. My foot slipped on one of the stairs and I tripped. I expected to hit the ground but instead of feeling the hard carpeted stairs I fell into Ally’s arms.

“Hey! Watch it Sav. You’re gonna kill yourself!” Ally steadied me and started walking up the stairs in the opposite direction. I stood there for a little bit just catching my breath and then started again down the stairs, a little slower now.

I didn’t feel like eating so I skipped breakfast. I grabbed a little food for later and stashed it in my Lonsdale bag. I decided to walk to school, so I could take my time and not worry.

I plodded of to school very slowly, just looking at the ground the whole time. I walked through the school gates at 8.40a.m. I was only 10 minutes late but I still needed a not from the office.

When I entered the office all the kids in there turned to stare at me. It was weird because they didn’t look away, embarrassed that I caught them staring at me. No. They just kept staring. I tried to ignore it, but it was really hard. For once in my life, I didn’t feel in control of my situation so to try and change that I asked:

“What are you looking at?” The girl I asked just shrugged her shoulders, rolled her eyes and turned to talk to her friend who was still staring as well. I gave that girl a look as well and she turned away. I looked around the room and everyone had turned away. I was grateful for that.