Zara's P.O.V
I think sitting on my own in my room watching the cars pass by the window is not a good enough evening compared to going out on late night dates and sharing inside jokes and laughing and having a good time and knowing someone loves you and not even caring about your best friend at home alone. That's when I lost it, that's all I remember of that Friday evening before I broke down and started crying. Tears streaming down my face, a lump in my throat and a cloudy mind. The floor became my shoulder to cry on the reminder that's it's the only thing there for me when I fall. Sometimes I wish I had a friend that actually gave a fuck. I don't though and there is something I can do about it, but I don't. Because I don't want to be the betrayer even though it's me that's been so loyal all these years. It was always me and I get no fucking reward for it. Anna however gets hot dates and popularity. She gets a beautiful face and confidence that I will never have. She gets the boy that I've had a crush on since year seven. She gets the self esteem I wish I had. And its shit, its really shit knowing all this knowing I'm just the person that knows Anna, I'm just her shadow and everybody knows it. Everybody knows I'm not worth giving the time or fucks about. People are really shit and I hope that Brad knows how much of a fuck boy he is. I hope he knows how much I love him even though I know what he's like. Even though I saw him kissing my best friend. Even though I was lying to myself and about hating him all these years, even though I care. Because that's my problem, I care and nobody else cares back.
So yeah that was my Friday night.
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A/N
This was really super short but it's just a chapter to mainly to show you the thoughts inside Zara's head. I know I know there was a big reveal in this chapter even though it was superrrrr short. Next one will hopefully be out by the weekend and will be super long.
Love you lotsa,
Issy xox
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