It happened again last night, Jeff and I. Thinking back on it I can still feel his lips on mine. I am so happy. I love him. Wait what, I love him. I love Jeff. I mean I knew that I did, but I just realized the extent of that love. I smile, in peace. He stirs and says, "Emma, are you awake already?" Jeff actually slept last night. "Yeah." I answer. I roll over and face him, I trace the scars of his smile. He takes my hand and kisses my fingertips. "I love you." I tell him. "I love you too." He says and we just lay there taking in that moment that we finally declared in words what we felt.
I smile so wide it hurts and I laugh, I'm so happy. He nuzzles his head into my neck, like he always does. I go to see Rose today, we are going shopping. We made this huge story about how Sara always likes to wear her halloween costume. We all go out shopping and luckily no one asks about Sara's costume, they just think that she is scene/punk and is trying something new, which is a huge relief.
I pick out this black ruffled shirt, sleeveless, and a pair of faded blue jean shorts with a pair of studded black knee high converse. I love the outfit. I also pick out this blue and black tye-dye dress that reaches my knees and a little rose hair piece that is black and has a net that covers my face. I also got a pair of black pumps, and a pair of netted tights.
Sara got a hot pink tee shirt with a customizable logo that said LJ and Sara forever. It was cute, she also got a 2 pairs of black leggings, and a neon orange tee shirt that covers her bum, and a pair of tye-dye hightops. Rose got a pink netted rose and a belt with a rose on it that goes over a black dress that is covered in pieces of netted purple material and the white version of my converse. She also got a blue shirt with a pair of purple leggings and a pair of pink flip flops.
We didn't spend any money just threatened the store manager, then murdered him after we got our clothes. We headed back home and the boys asked us how come we only got two outfits each if we were just gonna kill the guy anyways, why not just take the whole store. I said, "We would not be able to empty that store before the cops got there." They nodded. I sat down in Jeff's lap on the couch and everyone left. Jeff was sipping on a root beer and I stole it and downed the rest of it down.
"Oh, now you're gonna get it." He said as he started a tickle fight. It had been a about 4 months that Jeff and I had been together when I was starting to feel funny. I would throw up everything I ate in the mornings and I would get really cranky and Jeff and I would always get into fights about the simplest things. One day he broke my heart when he moved out of the house, and I hadn't seen him in 2 or 3 months now. My baby bump was getting bigger and he was still nowhere to be found.
I never told him about little Joslen Anne. He finally showed up 2 weeks before my due date and we got into a fight over whether I had cheated on him or not. He wanted a dna test done when Joslen Anne was born. I said that would be fine. I cried to Rose and Sara for hours over him not believing that Joslen Anne was his. The girls said that in time he would find out the truth. Well, in time he did. Because when Joslen Anne was born she looked just like him, well his old human self. She did though look like me too. She had raven colored hair, bright piercing blue eyes. She was gorgeous I cried the first time I saw her.
Rose transfered her out of my arms to Jeff's. "Hey baby, my beautiful girl. Daddy loves you very much." He told her as she blinked her eyes at him. The girls oohed and ahhed over Joslen until Jeff rushed them out of the house. He laid down beside me, "I'm a terrible father, and a terrible boyfriend."
"No, you are not, you just didn't know the truth." I told him. "Okay, we need to find a preacher, because even though I hate churches, I want us to get married. Because I want the world to know that you are my wife and that she is my daughter." I smiled. "What happened to that homicidal maniac I first met? I miss him, plus I want to go kill. When she gets old enough we need to teach her to murder."
"Absolutely. My daughter is not gonna be a goody two shoes." There was a knock on the door and Jeff opens the door. "I said no more visitors E.J." He snarled. "Let him in." I say. Little did Jeff know, but while he had disappeared E.J. had come and checked on me everyday, bringing me some pancakes and bacon and some fried kidneys for him. He nodded at me, "Emma," He didn't talk very much so his voice was hoarse. I smiled and he came and gave me a big bear hug. "E.J. how have you been?"
"Good, missin ya though, how's princess? She make into the world okay?"
"She most certainly did." I answer. He hands me a styrofoam case with bacon and pancakes inside of it. "Eat, you need protein, nothin better than bacon." I laugh, "Except for kidneys."
"Yasss!" He shouts. Jeff looks confused he doesn't hear E.J. talk very much especially when it is a girl. "You're the best E.J.." I tell him. "What is going on here?" Jeff asks with that accusing look in his eyes. "Oh, when you disappeared E.J. came to check on me everyday and we kind of became like besties." A huge amount of relief was on Jeff's face when I said besties.
E.J. looked at Joslen as she lay in her cradle, a look of pure joy was on his face when she reached up her tiny, pink hand and wrapped it around his pinky. "She is so adorable. I'm still the godfather right?" I nod and he fist pumps. Jeff still looks very confused.
