Heyyy..
I'm back.
I'm breaking apart.
I'm falling down.
But,
No one there is gonna catch me.
No one cares?
Right?
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This has been happening for a while and I thought I'd make a stop to it today.
I don't want to sound selfish and I didn't want to start anything.
REALLY!
My 'bff' sprained her ankle during long jump last week and she's been away since..
She doesn't know that during that time period I was in my group of friends we usually hang out with.. Being ignored. It's only so rare they ask if I'm alright..
Of course my dumb self I say yea..
But have you ever just wanted someone your talking to to just stop you, hug you, let you cry, and say their there for you no matter what? And they didn't judge you?
I guess that's what I wish would happen to me each day..
Every time I come to school..
The night before we always talk really great and seem like the bestest friends ever.. But when everyone else comes it's like she forgets about me until we're alone again..
I FEEL LIKE SHE ONLY COMES TO ME WHEN SHE HAS A PROBLEM! AND EVERY TIME I HELP THINKING SHE'LL DO THE SAME DAMN THING IF I NEEDED IT! BUT DID SHE TODAY?
NO!
I TRIED ACTING IT OUT AS IF IT WAS ADVICE FOR A FRIEND TELLING THE SITUATION BUT THEN I STARTED GIVING HINTS THAT THE GIRL WAS HER AND SHE KEPT LAUGHING AND NOT CARING!
SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW HURT THAT MADE ME FEEL.
AND SHE DIDNT TALK TO ME AFTER THAT.
WHY IS SHE MAD? HUH?
WHAT ABOUT ME! FOR ONCE!
WHAT ABOUT ME?
IM ALWAYS THE ONE THEY GO TO FOR HELP WHEN THEY NEED IT ALWAYS THE ONE TO TALK TO!
BUT WHEN IT COMES TO ME THEY ALL GO AWAY!
WHAT ABOUT ME WHAT ABOUT MY PROBLEMS?
DONT THEY CARE?
I just- I want a friend that lasts forever.
Someone who gets me.
Someone who loves me for me.
We can talk as a group but not breaking the special link we have.
We can keep secrets.
We can help each other
We can-w-we can trust each other, care, be stupid.. Together.
I guess I just want a friend.
A friend.. To stay.
