Poems

Suicidal Sam and I

Just walking

Twenty more minutes

My heart stops

I turn and look at him before everything goes black

'Where am I? Why am I still alive?' I ask

'A young man saw you fall and he checked for a pulse

When he found a weak one, he called here.' a blonde bimbo of a nurse stated

You see, I was never supposed to live through that event

I walked away from my house, calculating the exact spot

The exact spot of my death

I would take me 15 minutes to have the proper tools

I set out walking out to the lake which is 30 minutes from my house

I am frigid, wait sorry it is frigid, I knew I was going to die so why die with a coat on

I saunter towards the lake making sure to have something to break the ice

The ice is broken and I take the most arctic and death-defying plunge of my life

So I fall and as I fall, I think to myself, "where did I go wrong?"

I feel my numbness start to fade, I feel something so cold that for once I actually feel something.

Who was this mysterious young man? Where did he come from? 

Why did he save me?

Why me?

Doesn't he know what I've done?

HE was the one who saved me

HE broke my heart

HE broke my spirit

HE broke me

HE betrayed me

HE is my inner demon

So why would he save me?

He didn't save me to let me live

He saved me to kill me slowly.

So in the end,

                      I will die a more     

                                                    painful

                                                                 death.