me and the bad boy (niall fanfic)

chapter 4:red

I ended up not going home yesterday no matter how much I protested niall wouldn’t let me he said’’ I have to show them that im stronger than that’’ when the school day was over I waited by nialls car for him a fake smile was playing on my lips which looked pretty convincing. But inside I couldn’t wait to get home. Finally niall walked out of the door and smiled proudly at me which made me feel guilty for faking the whole im stronger willed than they are act. ‘’hey beautiful’’ he said pulling me into a hug and gently giving me a kiss on the cheek. We both slid into our seats I couldn’t help but tap my foot at my  arrival at my house as we pulled into the driveway I said my goodbyes to niall and quikly walked into the immediately going to the kitchen to find my parents yelling at each other they turned to face me stopping momentarily to shoo me away but not before my mum tells me’’ how ugly and fat I look today’’ and my dad telling me about how ‘’he regrets making me’’ that last comment really hurt but im used to it I go thrue the same thing everyday  being called names . almost everyday I go into my room put up my things and look for the small altoids box with razors in it in the hole in my mattress . I go into my bathroom and peel of my clothes put them into the clothes hamper , I turned on the shower and put in the plug letting the bath tub fill half way I step in and submerged my bum into the water , it only covered my bum it didn't make to my thighs. as I sat ther I started crying hard every time  I thought of something someone said I cryed even harder . finally I reached up and grabbed the razor and drug it into and across my thigh slowly hundreds of time with each slice I cut deeper and deeper , maybe death wouldn't be so bad I thought looking at the bottle of bleach sitting across the room  I contemplated that it could wait maybe until tomorrow. as I looked down I saw that I couldn't see the bottom of my tub the blood coloring the water, MY blood coloring the water I just realized how bad it smelt of blood in here as I made one last cut I saw just how deep my slices were until I saw darkness blurr my vision my last thought before I blacked out was that it would be nice to die right now and never have to face the world again