The Suicide Pheasent -Joshler

.:One:.

I couldn't describe Debby any other way, she knew how to lighten the mood even if someone had gone through some traumatic event, she knew exactly how to keep everyone and everything calm. She was paralysing and I told her everything. Her stare was beautiful wicked which made any man tell any sins. She was a blonde Christian girl, great with kids, I met her in our church

We're "meant" to be but, she's not even interested in me. She uses me for my dick and that's about it really, what can I say. Brown curls, normal boring brown eyes, a stupid smile aren't something you normally want. Oh well, there's no use degrading myself

Sitting here at this table with Jenna and her is making my stomach hurl at he tapping of the nails and the clattering of the restaurant around us a-

"So, Josh, what'd you think?" Debby smiled, her luscious pink lips quivering

"Yeah it's defiantly," I looked around searching for something "posh"

"No silly, my bracelet! Look. My grandma says that it was passed down through great Ryan ancestors and I've got it now"

The bracelet was old rusty and pretty fragile.

"Yeah it's nice"

She rolled her eyes, Jenna's bright eyes wondered over to Debs hands

"It's pretty I think, it seems old but, pretty"

"Thankyou Jen"

"Thankyou Jen" I mocked quiet enough so she couldn't hear me

A few painful minutes passed as our food arrived. I tossed around the meat ball that laid onto the spaghetti restlessly before sticking the fork in and biting it. The meat was rough and horrible but I kept chewing

Debby and Jenna, on the other hand, both ordered salad. Classy

"Josh, please smile?"

I looked up to see Jenna had left for the toilet maybe and it was just me and Debby

"I am"

"You look like you want to be shot"

"I do"

"Why? Jenna's lovley!"

Her voice raised slightly until our gazes met

"Couldn't we just have been alone for once Debby" I sighed, placing my fork in a polite manner while wiping my mouth with my sleeve

She opened her mouth to come to abrupt stop

"I'm not interesting am i"

"Josh"

"She always ha-"

Jenna's presence held my mouth shut before I continued eating, picking up my fork

"So um, I met this guy" Jenna's voice turned happy slightly

I blanked out the rest of the conversation as I ate my food. I couldn't and wouldn't be arsed to. Hear about Jenna's new crush

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It was dark, the only light peering through the bedroom window. Finally, darkness. The peaceful truce.

I laid, Debbys quiet snores aside me. My head was rested back as my eye lashes flickered shut.

Sleep felt like it never lasted long. Asleep and then awake straight away. Yet again I was awake to a note by Debby making some excuse

"I'm out with Jenna"

Obviously

"I'm thinking about a holiday with her, while you're moving, what'd you think :)"

Excuse me

I sighed again rolling my eyes even if she never saw it. Eye rolls, you've got to love them