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goodbye without goodbye

One month. The very best month of their entire lives and suddenly Troye just decided to go away, to go back to Australia. No explanations, one day he just woke up and decided he wanted to come back to his home, come back to his old life. Like all that month between him and Tyler never meant anything, he just woke up and took off, no goodbyes, no last kisses, no last hugs, no last words. one night he was right there cuddling his boyfriend and the next morning he was getting into a plane to go thousand miles away. Forgetting that, behind him, he was leaving, not only a lifetime dream, not only his best friends, but also the person who've always made him smile from the very first time they met, the person he loved and always loved him back, the person who gave him his everything even before they were dating each other. Behind, he was leaving his life to go back to some thing he wasn't even sure he had anymore. He didn't know what he needed, what he was looking for or what he expected to find back home, but he just felt he needed to go, like something was pulling him there. Not even for a second he thought about the boy, that one who would wake up for an empty bed, an empty closet, an empty home, and would have to live with no explanation on why the love of his life decided to go away without him, without even tell him to where or why.
Two months, two months went by, for two months there were no letters, no calls, no texts. Tyler tried, he tried so much, everyday he would try to text or call but eventually the number just was shut down, he even tried to send some letters to Troye's old Australian address but they were always sent back. For two months the older guy tried to reach his boyfriend, tried to understand, tried to take him back. Two months, he lost two months of his life on someone who just decided to disappear and didn't even think about him. Two months. two months was more than enough. more than enough for Troye to come back if he wanted to, more than enough for Troye to give some news if he wanted to, more than enough for Tyler to decide to stop suffering. If the guy he loved didn't care enough about him so Tyler wouldn't keep wasting his life, his youth, his heart, waiting for someone who didn't appreciate him enough.
A year, a year went by, still no news about Troye, no one knew anything about the boy, not even the media, no one knew where he's been or doing. no one had any clue. Tyler? Poor him, he just stopped talking about the boy, he just stopped answering questions about him, going places that reminded him of him, doing things they used to do together, the less things he had to make him remember about Troye the less it would hurt. Or so he would show. every night, in the dark of his room, he would cry himself to sleep, wondering where they went wrong, wondering why Troye would give up on him, thinking about every single second of that month as official boyfriends and all the lovely moments before they decided their relationship was not just a friends thing. Every night he would dream about the boy who made him give his whole, who made him feel happy and safe, who made him love, and then left destroying not only his heart but also his whole world, the boy who would probably never come back to his life and he would probably never know why. The boy who was his everything, and just like that became nothing more than a mirage in the desert that was Tyler's life after losing his only light.

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I wrote this one because i was feeling a little down and I'm going through something a little similar to what I wrote (except for the one year part) so I decided to publish and hope you enjoy it even tho I know it's sad, sorry ⭐

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